Astral Storm
Existence hurts too much
- Aug 10, 2022
- 74
Awfully tired of Everything
I feel so hopeless about literally everything. I am just so tired but this kind of tiredness is like an ultimate resignation. It's almost like apathy and an utter sense of defeat.
I am tired of living and fulfilling these endless needs which will never leave unless I die. I am so tired of these questions about existence too but I ask it over and over again. I can't bear all of this. Why is there such dense suffering with all of it's horrors? Why is there violence? There's no meaning or goal in it. Just for the sake of some twisted joke and there's only more. Just the torment for billions of years and the utterly vile things we do to each other. Why is there constant screaming of agony? Why is there loss and weeping? Why can't there be peace for all? This whole life and existence doesn't make any sense to me at all.
In the end, there are no straight or actual answers for our struggles. I am so awfully tired of getting up and going through the day which won't even matter after I am dead. I don't even know why I am even doing this. I want to help others but suffering and cruelty will always remain. I am so angry at everything. I truly despise life and it's heinous laws. Maybe this huge anger keeps me alive now but I just want to leave. I just want to disappear from this vile place. I am so awfully tired of this world.
I feel so hopeless about literally everything. I am just so tired but this kind of tiredness is like an ultimate resignation. It's almost like apathy and an utter sense of defeat.
I am tired of living and fulfilling these endless needs which will never leave unless I die. I am so tired of these questions about existence too but I ask it over and over again. I can't bear all of this. Why is there such dense suffering with all of it's horrors? Why is there violence? There's no meaning or goal in it. Just for the sake of some twisted joke and there's only more. Just the torment for billions of years and the utterly vile things we do to each other. Why is there constant screaming of agony? Why is there loss and weeping? Why can't there be peace for all? This whole life and existence doesn't make any sense to me at all.
In the end, there are no straight or actual answers for our struggles. I am so awfully tired of getting up and going through the day which won't even matter after I am dead. I don't even know why I am even doing this. I want to help others but suffering and cruelty will always remain. I am so angry at everything. I truly despise life and it's heinous laws. Maybe this huge anger keeps me alive now but I just want to leave. I just want to disappear from this vile place. I am so awfully tired of this world.
