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NumbForLife

NumbForLife

I was born numb and I will die numb.
Jan 29, 2026
187
Over several months only 2 guys in my area messaged me after seeing me on the Partners Thread and then they disappeared. I don't have strict criteria, the person just has to be at least in their mid 20s, be willing to study the method thoroughly like me, and have a place to do it or I can suggest a few options. I can pay for all the supplies.

I hesitate about trying on my own, but maybe because literally nothing is going well for me in life with my anhedonia and autoimmune-like issues, and now with constant roadblocks with the projects I'm working on I should just attempt this month. The only person I'm close to in person who has been a nice person their whole life also just seriously changed several weeks ago and started becoming an intolerable, angry person. 2 of my family members already constantly lose it on other people on a regular basis so I can't stand them my whole life.

I really can't take this shit anymore. I've been overwhelmed with enough problems before all the project roadblocks and this person changing into someone unrecognizable. Also, screw the hot weather. I'm finding it impossible to function lately.
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
No need to censor yourself here. You can say suicide, kill, harm, whatever.

Over several months only 2 guys in my area messaged me after seeing me on the Partners Thread and then they disappeared

That's unfortunately to be expected here. You either see the same behavior here as everywhere else, people just have their own mental health struggles, or they simply die. It seems to be rather common to not be able to find a partner, unfortunately. Don't take it personally.

Also, screw the hot weather.

I feel that on such a deep existential level. I hate summer. This year has been especially cruel.
 
NumbForLife

NumbForLife

I was born numb and I will die numb.
Jan 29, 2026
187
No need to censor yourself here. You can say suicide, kill, harm, whatever.



That's unfortunately to be expected here. You either see the same behavior here as everywhere else, people just have their own mental health struggles, or they simply die. It seems to be rather common to not be able to find a partner, unfortunately. Don't take it personally.



I feel that on such a deep existential level. I hate summer. This year has been especially cruel.
Yeah I know. I did that in the title intentionally. Yeah, I noticed there aren't many people on here from Western Canada, but there have been a decent amount of people on here from Eastern Canada, especially Ontario. I love winter. I just need like 12-14 degree weather ya know? Not this crap.
 
pk@2001

pk@2001

Member
Apr 27, 2026
77
Well if the time's ripe,then every month feels worthy enough to.....
 

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