suicidesheep31
Specialist
- Jun 27, 2020
- 348
I feel more than alone now.
Last Thursday, I started to drink because I had difficulties to deal with something.
I did hurt myself unvoluntary by opening beers.
I went in a psychiatric building to pee. I am human lol. (some humor is never bad).
But, unfortunately, I spread blood in the toilet.
I said to someone that they need to clean it.
But they bring me to the ER just next to the building.
I was fixed 5-points there because I had a scarf attached to a tree next to the building and they did not trust me. I even peed on myself.
Anyway, they let me go even though I was saying I will restart.
Now, the big mistake comes.
I went to my work place. Drank and wrote in a chat if everybody would be ok if someone was killing oneself in the coffee room.
I went in my office in the mean time, Some colleagues came because there were worried.
They found me sleeping on my office desk with on my screen a chat open to ask help related to suicide.
The point is that today, I was asked to not come back anymore in my office and laboratory.
It is difficult for my colleagues to see me so I have to leave.
I feel bed to have hurt them.
That is it.
Nothing else to say. Except that I really not wish to hurt again people.
I was asked to work from home.
Last Thursday, I started to drink because I had difficulties to deal with something.
I did hurt myself unvoluntary by opening beers.
I went in a psychiatric building to pee. I am human lol. (some humor is never bad).
But, unfortunately, I spread blood in the toilet.
I said to someone that they need to clean it.
But they bring me to the ER just next to the building.
I was fixed 5-points there because I had a scarf attached to a tree next to the building and they did not trust me. I even peed on myself.
Anyway, they let me go even though I was saying I will restart.
Now, the big mistake comes.
I went to my work place. Drank and wrote in a chat if everybody would be ok if someone was killing oneself in the coffee room.
I went in my office in the mean time, Some colleagues came because there were worried.
They found me sleeping on my office desk with on my screen a chat open to ask help related to suicide.
The point is that today, I was asked to not come back anymore in my office and laboratory.
It is difficult for my colleagues to see me so I have to leave.
I feel bed to have hurt them.
That is it.
Nothing else to say. Except that I really not wish to hurt again people.
I was asked to work from home.
