At what point do i just accept its over

[thatrandomlineguy]

I am so miserable. I've was diagnosed with mdd at 10 or 11 and been depressed since besides a 4 month break my freshman year of highschool. I'm on three different antidepressants at the moment. I hate everything about myself. I've been just continuing to live despite the pain but i'm starting to think this is going to be my entire life. I think I am genuinly unlovable and dramatic is it just time to give up? I've tried many times and never succeeded what is the most accessible, easiest, cleanest method. If i can't go all three just whatever is accessible. Or is there something else to do to stop the pain? I've gotten all the "help" there is to give and it just doesn't help. I am a bottomless pit.