As the days get closer...

[Cherry xoxo]

As the days get closer I feel so emotional because I will be leaving my family, I love them alot. It breaks my heart that I won't get to see my little cousin and my brother grow up, I won't be there for them, to help them, to celebrate their birthdays, their accomplishments... I just won't be there anymore
As much as I feel emotional I know I can't withstand anymore, I just wanted things to be peaceful and before I left, to make it seem like I was happy and nothing was wrong, but instead it's chaos and apart of me is still in shock that this is the decision I've had to come too because I cannot face what life has given me.
I hope the people I love and care about can forgive me and I hope somehow they will think It just happened in my sleep of natural causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. After all we are all human and there is only so much we can take. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[Lost Magic]

 

[miserableforever]

As the days get closer I feel so emotional because I will be leaving my family, I love them alot. It breaks my heart that I won't get to see my little cousin and my brother grow up, I won't be there for them, to help them, to celebrate their birthdays, their accomplishments... I just won't be there anymore
As much as I feel emotional I know I can't withstand anymore, I just wanted things to be peaceful and before I left, to make it seem like I was happy and nothing was wrong, but instead it's chaos and apart of me is still in shock that this is the decision I've had to come too because I cannot face what life has given me.
I hope the people I love and care about can forgive me and I hope somehow they will think It just happened in my sleep of natural causes.

If you feel up for it, leave a letter, explain why you CTBed and that it's not because of them etc.
I think the worst is when people have unanswered questions. With an explanation they might be able to move on after a while.
My parents both abandoned me and I will never be ok again cause no one told me why, so I blame myself. It's the worst feeling.
I wish you all the best. I hope you get everything in order the way you desire.

 

[Cherry xoxo]

If you feel up for it, leave a letter, explain why you CTBed and that it's not because of them etc.
I think the worst is when people have unanswered questions. With an explanation they might be able to move on after a while.
My parents both abandoned me and I will never be ok again cause no one told me why, so I blame myself. It's the worst feeling.
I wish you all the best. I hope you get everything in order the way you desire.

I'm contemplating leaving a letter because I don't really want anyone to know I did this but at the same time what if they find out... Still deciding

I'm so sorry but you should not blame yourself for other people's mistakes, i cannot imagine the pain but you are obviously a very strong person and it's their loss.
Thank you for your response, I wish you the best