As I get closer to my ctb

[Snake of Eden]

I cant help but think all the details leading to and surrounding me on my day. I am in process of ordering nembutal. I know I am booking a hotel room on the day of. I want to not alarm my parents since they live with me but my mother will start calling me when she realizes I am not around which will cause me to feel guilty over doing what I intend to do. I worry after I ingest the nembutal that I may alarm somebody so to save me but I really can not afford for this one time deal to fail. Any word of advice to avoid last minute change of heart?

 

[hʚll]

maybe write down why you're choosing to kill yourself. so when you read it, you remind yourself the reasons, if your si starts causing troubles

 

[BottomlessPit]

I will keep reminding myself of my dead-end future and all the difficulties which await me if I don't die.

Btw, maybe you can tell your family some story about how you're going to visit a friend or something. So you have an excuse to leave for a few days.