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Life'sA6itch

Lights out please
Oct 29, 2023
333
Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
But I have so many things to do before I pull the plug! Things that require way more than 20 minutes...

Mmmm...

Screw all that! I'll be at the bus stop in five minutes!!!
 
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vercabow

watching all the stars burn out
Nov 22, 2024
98
i'm not ready.

but in the end i have no choice, so why does it matter.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,471
I'd personally be long gone if I had the option to cease existing painlessly, under no circumstances would I wish for the futile and torturous burden of being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, there are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake to me, I'll always see existence as an abomination and being able to painlessly die would solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I only hope and wish to never exist ever again. For me existence was always something deeply undesirable in the first place, it's something that just causes harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway, I'd always prefer to die painlessly than be tormented in this futile existence just waiting to die just to be tortured by old age, nothing would make me wish for the extreme torture of suffering from old age rather I just wish to be non-existent instead, I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I'd rather spend some time writing a suicide note for my family and making a goodbye thread on here but if I were to get a once in a lifetime opportunity to ctb via N even if I wouldn't get a chance to utilise it ever again, I would use that chance asap since the number 1 thing for me would be to escape existence as peacefully and quickly as possible
 
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NotSalmon

NotSalmon

Asocial Impulse Poster
Dec 9, 2024
49
Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?
No... Not the right place or time, but it never seems to be. But I oftentimes lay in bed anticipating something unknown that never comes, I am not sure what it is, could be a miracle, or could be the right time for death.
 
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-Tandem-

Member
Nov 25, 2018
84
Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?
Right now yeah. Like the desire to 100% follow through comes and goes but tonight I would definitely do it if I had a gun
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,761
Hell yes. 20 min is enough time to write a note goodbye to everyone
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
It would be less than ideal timing because I wanted to do it in a hotel, but if that's what it took to get N then I'd do it in my car instead.
 
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APeacefulPlace

APeacefulPlace

Ape
Dec 2, 2024
297
Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?
Yes! my preferred method would be Sean's pink & purple pill, quick sleep-inducing effect, no pain and nobody will know it's a suicide. However... too good to be true 😂.
 
eike2838

eike2838

The best time to live is when it's the last day
Dec 25, 2024
17
Yeah, the only reason I currently don't is because I'm living with a lot of people and trying something is sure to fail and I don't want brain damage. So if I could do it in 20 minutes and no one would catch me until I was done, yes
 
Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,352
Nah. I trapped in here.
 
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Too_Many_Years

Too_Many_Years

Future Corpse
Dec 18, 2024
15
If it was a quick painless way to go then yeah. Id write my goodbyes and be gone.
 
Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
129
I'd definitely do it but I'd be hesitant at first but know that this is the best opportunity in my life
 
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nogoodfornoone

Member
Dec 5, 2024
5
If I had enough heroin, I'd probably go a few days getting high, and then OD. Any opiates would do. I'm definitely ready for life to be over, I just don't want it to be painful or difficult.

I read this wrong, so to clarify, no, I'm not ready 20 minutes from now. I would want at least a full day knowing I would be doing it.
 
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ScaredOfMachines

ScaredOfMachines

I am who I am
Nov 8, 2024
156
I'd CTB. Twenty minutes isn't enough time to really fast and stuff for SN, but I'd take the chance. I'm not sure if I would use the extra time to write anything up or not, though.
 
avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
If a bottle of N magically materialized before me rn, yeah, probably.
 
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JustHere1

JustHere1

In a way, in a shape, in a form.
Dec 21, 2024
148
Yes, but I am afraid of pain. I'm not 100% on the method I want to use but likely handgun + momentum fall from a height to solidify certainty of fast death.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,673
No but it would give me one more thing to feel resentful about. That I had my chance but- I still didn't take it for your sake (Dad.)
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,958
Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?
That's a really difficult question to be answered. It requires some impulse here that impulse isn't there all the time. I think I would've taken N to sleep just a day or 2 ago but currently I would think about it more. In my case, it's really so much dependent on the current situation - I would be long gone bc objectively there's nothing to miss out in life for me anymore but subjectively there is and there is SI and family is there, too.
 
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offtoseethewizard

offtoseethewizard

Student
Aug 19, 2023
122
N? 20 minutes? Sure
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
Well, it's a bit like those dubious advertising offers that try to seduce you into impulse buying with fake shortages and false information. I really don't like being manipulated!
I wouldn't believe this manipulation either, there is always another solution.

But of course I understand the theoretical idea behind the question. I wouldn't be ready, no...
 
BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
289
Yes, I'm so ready to go. I'm so tired of suffering.
 
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cmb2317

New Member
Nov 21, 2020
2
Yes! my preferred method would be Sean's pink & purple pill, quick sleep-inducing effect, no pain and nobody will know it's a suicide. However... too good to be true 😂.
Absolutely, without hesitation. Saying this i dint think i will be here to see 2025
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,511
Literally have my notes sitting in a drawer ready to go. Have draft emails written that I could probably schedule in 20 minutes. Hell yeah! Let's go! :sunglasses:
 
depressedinsomniac

depressedinsomniac

Student
Dec 29, 2024
123
This reminded me of Hitler and Eva in the bunker. Or Leonard Lake. Not that I think those were great people. I also don't necessarily believe Hitler died in the bunker. But it's an interesting hypothetical. We are lucky in a sense that we have this forum and the help of others across the web. But if faced with this set of factors. Do you do it? I think anyone who is thinking of ctb should pose this question to themselves to help them plan what they want. The key to your question is you can do it but never again. Since you pose it that way yes I would do it. For various reasons. My mental health has tanked. I get very little sleep. I am facing homelessness. So in a scenario where maybe I didn't get to squeeze as much pleasure out of the time I got left or be subjected to continuing to exist I would choose to ctb. It's a deep question definitely.
 

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