Are you greatful for your suicidal thoughts?

[NZkiwi]

I was negative about my suicidal thoughts
and then i was negative about my attempts in the past, shame, guilt, embarrassed

earlier thos year i became neutral about my suicidal thoughts
which lead to ambivelence/neutrality about my behaviour

then i had 2 attempts last week

im still neutral about my suicidal thoughts
howver im pro social/pro recovery in my behaviour around them now

a little guilt/sadness around what happened

still sucks

i wonder if the next step is being greatful for my suicidal thoughts, i can have them without feeling shame etc
and pro social/recovery with my behaviour

.where are you along this spectrum?

 

[N@te]

I guess I'm grateful, since I feel I'd be worse off if I didn't view suicide as a good option

 

[LRkin]

As for me, the very thought that I have an opportunity to end it all once and for all is rather soothing, so... yes, I suppose. It just feels like I have a "get out of jail free" card if my life gets even worse than that

 

[never mind me]

I don't think my suicidal thoughts are good or bad, so I feel neutral towards them. But as others have stated, I am glad that there is a way out, if life gets unbearable.

 

[Insufficent]

Most of my pain was because I viewed my suicidial thoughts as negative.
Now that I have become familiar with the matter that I will mostly die by suicide I actually feel relief and and sort of enjoyment towards life I have left.
It's not just wealth you cannot take into grave. It's also the memories and experiences of things that happened or things one wished had happened. Even the regret of missed opportunities is left behind.

 

[kurikaesu]

its comforting to know i always have a way out, added with a previous confirmation that i am very willing to do it and see no issue with it. everyone has had the passing thought of killing themself, no matter how stable or healthy you are, and that itself is also very comforting to think about, it lets me feel more accepted in a way.

to answer the question, somewhat. i know if make it out, i'll be one hell of a person, perhaps for the better.

 

[blackmoldonwall]

id be far more depressed if i didnt know suicide is an option

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I am grateful for them. They are leading me out of this 24/7 torture chamber world.

 

[PimpHand]

Thanks to my attempt, I do not fear death anymore, for death is the eternal peace of nonexistence.

I fear letting my loved ones suffer, I fear not fulfilling my destiny, I fear to not contemplate the crap out of my existence. But death, I do not fear it.

Rather die in glory than to life a mediocre life.