Are there many who are 30+ years old? Those who do it without impulsive feelings?

[orlandom]

Are there many who are 30+ years old? Those who do it without impulsive feelings?

 

[WornOutLife]

33 here and my idea is to have a proper plan but my damn bipolar disorder might make me ctb impulsively a random day!

 

[orlandom]

33 here <-

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

33 here

33 here <-

My arranged marriage senses are, once again, tingling.

 

[OldDude]

I'm 43 and think about for a while and try to get most of the stuff in my live solved not to leave a mess for others.

 

[orlandom]

My arranged marriage senses are, once again, tingling.

Ahahaha

 

[yetme]

43. Got everything prepared. Can't make myself to do it. Waiting for an impulse strong enough.

 

[Gerard de Nerval]

Turned thirty about 11 months ago. Both been impulsive and premeditated.

 

[orlandom]

I'm drunk again in shit. Forgive my brothers. Such terrible posts today. I probably drank 7.5 liters of beer.

 

[Tackingintothewind]

I'm 31 but thus far my attempts (or lack there of - thanks si) have been rather impulsive. Conjured up only in the moments or hours before.

 

[yetme]

I'm drunk again in shit. Forgive my brothers. Such terrible posts today. I probably drank 7.5 liters of beer.

все будет хорошо. когда-нибудь. возможно.

 

[orlandom]

все будет хорошо. когда-нибудь. возможно.

NO!

 

[PapaSuicide]

35 here, marriage is a partnership between two people.

 

[Bagger]

30 here and i lack impulsiveness. I need a complete plan before i do anything ctb related.

 

[BornBrief]

I turn 30 later this year. It hasn't been an impulsive feeling for me for a long time, though.

I feel like I lived my whole life expecting it would come to this to the point I just set myself up for it subconsciously. I had planned originally a few years ago; threw out tons of my things that couldn't be donated and spent most of my money on things I wanted to try or loved already.

I didn't go through with it though because I ended up meeting someone who I fell in love with. That ended up just being some of the most stressful few years I've had in so long between the relationship and covid and my family issues that came up. Probably better since I had a very basic understanding of short drop suspension


Now it's just a matter of preparing which is the hard part since I really don't want to feel pain or risk living with damage of some sort.

 

[orlandom]

I'm drunk again in shit. Forgive my brothers. Such terrible posts today. I probably drank 7.5 liters of beer.

"The eagles are in place. I can hardly live ... I can hardly live ... I climb into the bath ... I met the girl of my dreams ..."

 

[LittleBabyNothing]

In my 30's. Ending my own life has always been inevitable with me. Its very much thought through, i even discuss it in depth with my therpaist. Method all sorted, life and affairs ordered as much possible. i imagine that i will finally act while unstable and impulsive in a borderline episode though.
i am however half heartedly considering/attempting recovery again, for now.

 

[Isisnefert]

33 here, coming soon 34, My plan will Be studied in detail, the impulses end in the psychiatric ward

 

[Gerard de Nerval]

I'm drunk again in shit. Forgive my brothers. Such terrible posts today. I probably drank 7.5 liters of beer.

Had a shit ton of whiskey these past days. Been pretty drunk for a few days.

 

[orlandom]

I'm a brother too! Drink! This is my antidepressant. But soon I will be gone.

 

[SheJumped]

Well into my thirties, I have a countdown as I have a small one and do not want them to wonder why. I will do it at an age where they can better cope, I have two plans (in the event my method changes) and a series of events before the bus comes.

 

[Unicorns]

I'm 38. I also have borderline personality disorder and can be very impulsive. My latest episode seems to have got me in trouble and I got a message from cmht saying that I've got to answer the phone tomorrow to them or they r coming round my house. Help, I'm scared ! It can be hard to remember they r there to help. They seem to be all or nothing....

 

[loopylou]

33 here and my idea is to have a proper plan but my damn bipolar disorder might make me ctb impulsively a random day!

Can I come :)

 

[aloneagainnaturally]

I'm 35 and have very slowly, methodically come to the decision that suicide is the best option over a period of around a decade. I have no strong emotions or sadness about it anymore. I just realize that logically it's what makes sense.

 

[WornOutLife]

Can I come :)

Of course! Whenever you want =)

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

36 here and plan to plan it out but being a drunk who the hell really knows???

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I'll be 30 this year, but I've been suicidal since I was a little kid, so it's been a long time coming.

I have a history of impulsive attempts and learned that these don't always end so well (clearly, since they didn't work!), so this time I have put a lot of research and time into this to ensure that I plan this out properly, succeed in taking my life and minimise pain inflicted on myself and those I care about

 

[fred farkle]

Of course! Whenever you want =)

you rascal!!

 

[TotallyIsolated]

37 though I've never lived a day in my life

 

[wait.what]

43. Got everything prepared. Can't make myself to do it. Waiting for an impulse strong enough.

This is me too. I'm 48. I have a long history of making careful pre-suicide plans, and then not being able to go through with it at the last moment. I think I fear the loss of control—those last few moments of awareness after the point of no return. If I were more impulsive and less of a methodical plodder, it would probably be over by now. I don't know what to do about this. My chances for actual recovery seem remote, so suicide may actually be my best shot. Getting drunk disinhibits some people, but not me so much. I guess blind, impotent rage might give me the final push I need. Maybe I need to watch the news more often.