Are there any signs or experiences you have had recently that have allowed you to let go and plan to ctb

[oohiniyorafaad]

I received a looooong message from my dad basically saying that he loved me no matter what, my elderly grandma passed away and I took part in religious ritual of cleaning and preparing her body for burial (she looked so peaceful and her face was literally glowing). A week after my grandma's death, my dad and stepmother had a baby, we are 25 years apart. Seeing him and holding him was heartwarming, but it got me thinking of the cycle of life. make room for new life. I think these things have instilled in me that it is time to let go and I plan to ctb before the end of this year

 

[FuneralCry]

I have known that it is time to let go of this life for a long time, in my case there is nothing really specific, it is everything. I know that I will never want to live no matter what happens and that things will never get better. I have made peace with my decision to die, it is all I want, I just wish it was easier to actually leave this world.

 

[justtiredofit]

Known for a long time too, but I pushed through the pain to care for my dog since I knew there was no one that could do it after I was gone. When she died a few weeks ago, that was it for me. Unfortunately, my attempt failed. Even now, I write this with tears and the need to CTB.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I have had a very faint one recently. Just like a fleeting moment I guess. I spent most of my days drowned in my misery and pain. But recently when I read newspaper, which I don't do that often, I saw obeturies of people,some of whom were around my age and some even younger. They seemed more accomplished and better than me. I instantly found myself in a peaceful mental state knowing that it does not matter that much at the end. Death is not that much scary!
Although ctb is a whole different struggle I guess with pushing yourself to do this.