
iamthezero
The Prodigal Daughter
- Jun 22, 2018
- 32
Last week was the first week of sessions. Twice a week, at least 24 hours apart for 4 weeks, then drops to once a week. 2 hours at the office in a room for observation. Vitals, first dose round, wait 5 minutes, second. Peaks at around 40 minutes. I bring my own pillow and blanket. This week, going from 56mg to 84mg. It was fairly intense, but not bad at all. Was prescribed Zofran, took it the first day, forgot to take it the second, and didn't have any problems—only a headache, and of course, the dissociation that comes with it. To be honest, I felt some relief for a few days, kinda like a "man, maybe I can do this thing called life". Last dose was Thursday, today is Monday and I'm back to the crippling depression and crying (which is fucking annoying and pathetic). I just wish I were dead, so there's that.
I have an appointment tomorrow morning, so I may come back.
I have an appointment tomorrow morning, so I may come back.