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NZkiwi

Member
Sep 17, 2019
25
If I may ask, have you been a neurotypical/less deeply emotional person, cause I noticed that mainly the people (like me) who are/were way more neurodiverse, also seem to get the most fucked up neuropsychiatric and brain destroying side effects from those drugs.

hey thanks for the question. Just so im understandng it correctly, you're asking if im neurotypical? and if I'm less deeply emotional of a person?
I take medication for bipolar + adhd, hopefully that answers the first part of yoru question

less deeply emotional, i guess i'm a lot more regulated but previously i've been a lot more dysregulated and got into a lot of personal and professional trouble

i keep quite private and withdrawn form people when im dysregulated hence was more of a lurker in the past

i think the side effect i didn't like was on olanziapine with weight gain and feeling really, really hungry. when i was hosptialised previously they put me on it but i made sure i switched to something my boy agreeded with more once i was in the community

sorry to hear the psych meds aren't working for you, they do suck. i wish there was a perfect pill for everyone, i guess there is a peaceful pill lol hence why we're here

wish you all the best on your journey
 
Fadenself00_

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Sep 21, 2025
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hey thanks for the question. Just so im understandng it correctly, you're asking if im neurotypical? and if I'm less deeply emotional of a person?
I take medication for bipolar + adhd, hopefully that answers the first part of yoru question

less deeply emotional, i guess i'm a lot more regulated but previously i've been a lot more dysregulated and got into a lot of personal and professional trouble

i keep quite private and withdrawn form people when im dysregulated hence was more of a lurker in the past

i think the side effect i didn't like was on olanziapine with weight gain and feeling really, really hungry. when i was hosptialised previously they put me on it but i made sure i switched to something my boy agreeded with more once i was in the community

sorry to hear the psych meds aren't working for you, they do suck. i wish there was a perfect pill for everyone, i guess there is a peaceful pill lol hence why we're here

wish you all the best on your journey
Thanks for the reply.. The meds are the reason I am here, I have been brain raped by them (and that is the most accurate way to describe it). If you could record the POV of what happened to me and show it to everyone and lawmakers, it would be a huge scandal and drug classification and safety information and the system would hopefully get entirety revamped
 
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NZkiwi

Member
Sep 17, 2019
25
Thanks for the reply.. The meds are the reason I am here, I have been brain raped by them (and that is the most accurate way to describe it). If you could record the POV of what happened to me and show it to everyone and lawmakers, it would be a huge scandal and drug classification and safety information and the system would hopefully get entirety revamped
... did you ever go off your meds and what happened

i went off them for a year cause i thought i was just "emotional" and ended up under the mental health act in a foriegn country lmao >--- n e v e r a g a i n <--

I think some meds have pretty significant metabolic side effect and they do suck

for my bipolar, i knew unmedicated bipolar can be neurotoxic during manic epsiodes and can esculate severity off symtoms .. i was fairly well controlled in my early 20's taking medication as prescribed... but I decided I didn't think i was bipolar later on and went off them and low and behold i had a first episode psychosis and a mixed episode

i do trust what you're saying between the lines and had bad things happen to you, either growing up or now as an adult. I do hope you find peace through what ever choices you ake. wishing you all the best
 
Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
615
Sure, I have shaky hands that doesn't seem to go away, also I feel like I'm dumber than I used to be, more trouble with analogies and always a feeling that my mind is clouded. This has not been getting better. Overall I was lucky that I didn't end up with akathisia or other awful things like this.

But the main problem is I can't sleep without olanzapine, I have to take it every once in a while otherwise I will simply be unable to sleep no matter how tired I am. I'm really trying to get off it but sleep just won't let me. Even when taking it sometimes, I still sleep like absolute ass. Usually I wake up after one or two hours. And since the effects of olanzapine are opaque, I have no idea what my prognosis long term will be - whether my sleep problems will stabilize or get worse. No idea. Doctors DEFINITELY don't know either.

Damn psych meds can really mess you up. I worry about my sleep if I was to ever come off the meds. Sleep being so essential to functioning.
 
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korchoi

Member
May 15, 2026
13
I've been taking Xanax, Paxil, and Zoloft for panic disorder, but I've developed severe depression that I didn't have before. Breathing has become more difficult, and I also feel feverish. I really don't want to take psychiatric medication.
 

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