Venting Anyone really disappointed with how their life turned out ?

[Painless_end]

I mean I know it's obvious that's why we are all here.

But CTB discussion apart, are you just plain unhappy and disappointed with how you yourself turned out and how life turned out as well for you.

If you couldn't CTB like me, would you be unhappy with life going forward

 

[ddd1234]

I was extremelly hgappy just 3-4 months ago , now I am 100% sure that i need ctb. that's tragedy. God help me !

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yup. Very unhappy with my life right now and due to my own stubbornness it's truly too late to change anything about it, at least not without sacrificing the few good things in my life right now. I'm also very selfish so I refuse to compromise until everything changes around me to be perfect. That's why I need to die.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Sure I am disappointed, but honestly? I expected it to become like this. Now there's no point of return.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just disappointed and frustrated that I was born in the first place. I am not meant for this world. More than anything I wish I was never born. I think in my case, nothing would ever make me want to live. I would still be suicidal no matter what life I had. For me, life itself is the problem. It is disappointing that I am still alive, living an empty existence.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Profoundly disappointed

 

[Elri]

Unfortunately i can't just live with i have severe anxiety all the time i think i can attempt any moment

 

[healthrecovery]

I was extremelly hgappy just 3-4 months ago , now I am 100% sure that i need ctb. that's tragedy. God help me !

Same here

 

[ascetic_]

I never really had a life plan.

I always just passively coasted through time, never wanting to do anything, never knowing what to do exactly, and yet always waiting for something to happen.

The result of that waiting has been decades of stagnation, reclusion, and exacerbated mental illness.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I never really had a life plan.

I always just passively coasted through time, never wanting to do anything, never knowing what to do exactly, and yet always waiting for something to happen.

The result of that waiting has been decades of stagnation, reclusion, and exacerbated mental illness.

If you fail to plan you plan to fail… I kind of stumbled along myself… Figuring things would work themselves out… Oops

 

[back_to_oblivion]

Yes very disappointed. When I was a kid and even for a while as a teenager I had all these hopes and fantasies about the future. What I was gonna be like and what my life was gonna be like. I was so naive. Life turned out to be a slap in the face and a dissapointment. I failed life, never fitted in anywhere, unable to connect, failed to find a place for myself in life. So the inevitable result was a life of isolation and emptiness. No connections or life whatsoever except for family or work related. I think I never had the skills to make life a success and if there truly exists something like social/emotional intelligence I am probably a retard. My life is an embarassment. If I die that would go almost unnoticed and very few people would show up for the funeral. I just got to be an outsider observing from a distance how everyone is living life, I never felt like a participant in life at all but a spectator, it's so bizarre. All I did was existing not living, I feel like I'm a ghost, an empty shell.

It's now so difficult for me to find the energy or motivation to do stuff, for what? There is no hope for me, no prospects. The only thing in the future for me is an even worse life with maybe financial problems, poverty, maybe even homelessness and all I am doing is making sure my life doesn't go completely off the rails. But I know one day I won't have the energy and motivation for that anymore. How can someone who doesn't even want to be alive anymore find motivation and energy? Very difficult. I plan to go out on my own terms with at least a bit of dignity and I have made preparations, which brings a bit more calmth thankfully. I am glad I have a good option to end it all. All I want to do is to let go of life and forget it ever happened, forget about everything and cease to be.

 

[The Disinherited]

I've always been unhappy, its only since 2017 that I've accepted I'm doomed to despair for ever. Never had any prospects for happiness.

 

[YMN]

Of course, but really I have no one to blame but myself for how I've turned out. I ultimately can't see myself living a happy and stable life in the future. At this point I've just accepted my fate that I'm better off 6 feet under.

 

[redwaymilk]

100%. I am in a tomb of my own making. 3 months ago I was on top of the world.

 

[Darkover]

the earth a shithole and hellhole, life is enslaved awful shit, humans are shit creatures to primitive their full of shit, the universe is hugely disappointing to slow, slow atoms, why life is so disappointing here because nothing good ever last everything breaks down and dies in a very short time, life really is a living nightmare, the best you can do is make the best of what you got but that isn't much at all.