Anyone in Cali with extra SN?

[Apricity]

I was looking at SN as a potential backup in case I can't go through with my exit bag, but the cheapest I found was a 2lb container for $23. Anyone know where I can find a smaller/cheaper amount, or willing to spare some? Before anyone says it's too risky, It's legal to mail and you don't even have to put a real return address on it.

Also, I know I spent $300 on my exit bag setup, but I'm broke now and barely making the minimum payments on my credit card. I don't want to let it default just in case my wife decides to stop being stupid before I get too fed up and CTB.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I think you should worry about a backup plan if you fail with your first plan. I get it, the uncertainty is scary. But if you already have a built in excuse with a back up plan, I think it will only make it harder for you to suppress SI when the time comes.

I am in a similar situation after failing with partial yet again. Not sure if I should try again or finally try full suspension.

 

[Apricity]

I think you should worry about a backup plan if you fail with your first plan. I get it, the uncertainty is scary. But if you already have a built in excuse with a back up plan, I think it will only make it harder for you to suppress SI when the time comes.

I am in a similar situation after failing with partial yet again. Not sure if I should try again or finally try full suspension.

I tried partial a few times while waiting on my tank to arrive, it sucks. Just gagged a lot and felt like my head was gonna pop.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I tried partial a few times while waiting on my tank to arrive, it sucks. Just gagged a lot and felt like my head was gonna pop.

The last attempt I had was the closest I got. I found that you need to go completely limp and it takes more pressure to close your arteries than you think. I was rapidly losing consciousness within seconds this way. But instinctively I held onto the rope and stood up.

The head exploding feeling only comes when you partially close the arteries. You need to drop and hang your as much bodyweight on your neck, not gently try to choke yourself.

 

[Apricity]

The last attempt I had was the closest I got. I found that you need to go completely limp and it takes more pressure to close your arteries than you think. I was rapidly losing consciousness within seconds this way. But instinctively I held onto the rope and stood up.

The head exploding feeling only comes when you partially close the arteries. You need to drop and hang your as much bodyweight on your neck, not gently try to choke yourself.

I thought the whole point of partial was to avoid choking.