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anyoneshorizon

Member
Jun 8, 2022
96
What's your experience? how do you cope? is it a driving reason for being suicidal or one of many?
 
The_Flying_Fox

The_Flying_Fox

Member
Jan 9, 2022
63
Yes, me. And it's the main, or probably the only, reason I want to ctb.

My medication worked quite well for years, but some months ago it suddenly stopped working well enough. I'm now on a new drug, but it doesn't seem to do much. I've almost given up and have already chosen a date for my ctb.

How about you? What's your story?
 
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picklemick

Specialist
Jun 28, 2022
320
I had body dysmorphia before I was debilitatingly depressed. I miss it now honestly. Bodybuilding shit; never big enough mindset. But was a hell of a lot better than not being able o get out of bed
 
hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
I have it. I don't know what is real anymore. I try to be conscious and I try to talk back to my intrusive thoughts about me and my weight and my body. But I am just too aware. Sometimes I seem slim and others I feel like I look other ways. I don't know anymore.
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
my face yes, my body itself looks feminine I have no issue with that actually.
 
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