Anyone else wish they were aborted

[need2exit]

I told my mom i wish she just aborted me, it sucks that i feel this way, and that i made a mess of my life, if i was aborted, then i wouldnt have to deal with myself, i wish i learned to love myself, instead i lead my life with insecurity, I am tired of living as myself, because people believed i had potential, i thought i would do something great and helpful, i wanted to hold on too hope, but its all worthless now... if i was gone, my family and friends wouldnt have to worry about me

 

[itsallogrenow]

I do too.

When I was a kid, I found something relating to my mum and found she had 7/8 miscarriages before I was born.

I felt jealous over miscarriages

 

[itsgone2]

I don't know about aborted, but certainly not at all. I'm one of three. The only one planned. Although my brother committed suicide so I guess it didn't matter.

 

[katyusha_kat]

All the time. Then I wouldn't have to live this miserable, exhausting existence.

 

[InTheAbyss]

I wish I was aborted too. Even more, is that I know that mom was wanting to have an abortion when she was pregnant with me. Another family member talked her out of it. I was soo close to having never existed... :(

 

[evans]

Yes. I was put for adoption & went with an abusive family. I don't understand both not having an abortion when you are already drinking & doing drugs, as well as going through the agony of the adoption process then say you didn't want the child after all that. I got sterilised at 19 because I knew there was no way I would bring children into this terrible world.

 

[lonely2026]

Most definitely. Having monsters for parents is not ideal.

 

[boyafraid]

All the time. I wish I wasn't born 24/7 at this point lol

 

[thelostautistic]

Everyday

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

Absolutely

 

[Spite]

Apparently I was originally going to be aborted, or so I've been told. My mother became pregnant with me when she was 16, and I only stayed because her parents convinced her to continue with the pregnancy. Those decisions resulted in my life.

I really wish I had've just been aborted. I was never meant to be here. After everything I've been through in my life, it's evident I wasn't supposed to be here.

 

[sdco23]

I told my mom i wish she just aborted me, it sucks that i feel this way, and that i made a mess of my life, if i was aborted, then i wouldnt have to deal with myself, i wish i learned to love myself, instead i lead my life with insecurity, I am tired of living as myself, because people believed i had potential, i thought i would do something great and helpful, i wanted to hold on too hope, but its all worthless now... if i was gone, my family and friends wouldnt have to worry about me

Oh absolutely. Both of my parents told my sister that they were going to abort me, but decided against it last second. Like wtf.

 

[here_for_now]

Yep!

 

[insectontrial]

Yep. I grew up with a physically and emotionally abusive father, and a mother who just stood and watched it all happen, and then denied it when I was an adult, saying I made it all up and I am not right in the head. She has also told me I gave her PND.

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה,

Somehow when everything went into political plaid about a decade ago, there's always been some quirky, occasionally religious tinged issues that aren't worth going into, but around all that had enough conversations to accurately conclude mom has more love for the notional abortion she never had than concern for my well being unless, y'know what Boomers have become, the Doing Only Exactly Whatever She Wants that's in the minds of a lot of these people G-d let create a life.

So, thumbs up emoji, and I've basically been pro-choice on that and it turns out to be the mainstream Jewish position on bodily autonomy anyway, as much as the inability to give a shit about anything except whether money and treasure is coming out is orthogonal to most of that.

 

[letmeoff]

Yes. I don't know how or why I ended up here. Maybe my family line needed one miserable bastard to carry all the curses of our lineage.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yep my dad didn't want me but can't blame him as he was 50 when I was born. Not sure why but my nan decided to tell me a few years ago that he really wanted my mum to have an abortion (all I knew at that point was he wasn't best pleased to start with) so that was great news to hear lol. Apparently he came round to the idea when he found out I was going to be the first girl and could "look after him when he was old" so not only was I an accidental pregnancy bucking all odds because of the age of my parents, but I almost escaped life by being aborted. I wish I could've swapped with someone who would've genuinely appreciated life, for everyone's sake.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Generally, my parents are pro-choice when it comes to abortion and we've discussed this, but they also brought up the point that it is possible us children could've been aborted. Not saying they would've aborted us or not, or that we were "meant to be an abortion," just rather the fact it could've happened. At the time we discussed it, I recall thinking that I was lucky, nowadays however I wish they would've. It's truly curious how time, depression, despair, and suicidal ideation changes our view.

 

[Malfunction]

Yes. I've never really enjoyed life, I've always had health issues.

My mother was also a rape victim, she was 14. I should never had existed. She was too young and too traumatized to be a mom. But Catholic and all that jazz, she had no choice.

 

[wannabeangel]

i almost was accidentally, they almost gave my mom the wrong IV bag with meds for a woman having a miscarriage in the other room. i know it would have been emotionally terrible on them, but i wish they didnt double check the bags

 

[_wishforwings]

I was an accident, so for me I more so wish that "accident" never happened. I was the product of a one night stand my mom had in college, so I didn't know my dad for my entire life only to spend the time and testing to find him and figure out he doesn't want anything to do with me. Part of why I want to CTB cause I can't help but crave that relationship

 

[The Dead Line]

When I see people around me I believe I am not created to be here

 

[Forever Sleep]

I should have been aborted. My Mum found out she had cancer at the same time that she was pregnant. She delayed chemo and died three years later. My Dad reassures me that it wouldn't have saved her although- she may have lived a few months more. I wish they'd at least tried that route though.