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failedmind

failedmind

lonely
Oct 31, 2024
217
i started self harming when i was 10 & cut myself almost everyday until i was 17. I stopped for about 5-6 years then started again and now its all i think about. never thought id still be doing this at 25 sigh
 
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d4nknee

d4nknee

dance the night away
Jun 16, 2026
16
I'm in a similar spot. I feel so sad bc I was clean for a couple of years and I'm back where I started and it doesn't feel like anything has gotten better. Its weird bc I feel like that little 13 yr old again but now no one knows. Like before I would open up but I cut in places that are hidden by clothes so literally no one knows.
 
failedmind

failedmind

lonely
Oct 31, 2024
217
I'm in a similar spot. I feel so sad bc I was clean for a couple of years and I'm back where I started and it doesn't feel like anything has gotten better. Its weird bc I feel like that little 13 yr old again but now no one knows. Like before I would open up but I cut in places that are hidden by clothes so literally no one knows.
this is exactly how i feel word for word. im sorry youre going through something similiar
 
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needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway
Jun 15, 2025
42
Yeah I used to and I can't right now because my parents pay close Attention to me and I feel like I am losing my mind. I wanna cut so badly I have the feeling it helps me. Now I'm walking around feeling so angry. At myself at the world. And can't use the one tool that would relieve the pressure.
 

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