Venting Anyone else remember when their life was perfect?

[LifeSucks39]

I remember that a year ago everything was perfect and now I'm ready to ctb

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Mine never was perfect, tolerable at best...

 

[AcornUnderground]

Mine was perfect. A year ago. It is surreal what has happened and I am no longer able to continue living.

 

[waterbottleman]

Mine was never perfect or even good after I hit puberty.

The only silver lining I can see for people who have gone through life unsatisfied like me is that our expectations are a lot lower and we don't really have much to be nostalgic about. Like if our lives ever get good we can be happy that its the best it has ever been and not feel bad that we used to have it better.

 

[Yomyom]

Not perfect, but I remember a time when I was a chance to be just fine (far away from perfect, but me)

 

[nerve]

Life was never perfect, but it was definitely a lot more enjoyable when I was younger. There are a lot of good memories to look back on. It makes me feel like I really did have a life and got to experience some of the nice things in this world.

Finishing high school was basically the end for me. I graduated to the sofa and that's been the last six years.

 

[Mr2005]

1986-2004. Not perfect but normal. Then I fell off a cliff figuratively speaking

 

[faust]

5 years ago it was the best, but I was happy too early. After that, a recession began, and then life became unbearable.

 

[narval]

about 8 years ago. when i was studying. A lot of things was shit, but in those days i had a focus and i believed in my future...
Hope and a target. That was enough to keep me good. i miss that...

 

[_Minsk]

I remember that a year ago everything was perfect and now I'm ready to ctb

yeah, this is is the one thing which gets me out of the numbness straight into sadness and ctb thoughts.. life is imperfect

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

My MI really screws with my ability to look back at my life.

I know now that many of the times I thought were perfect, I was manic.

Who knows, really?

 

[LonelyHeart]

Ya, it was those early days when I pooped and pee'd on people... Now everyone seems to do it to me.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

97. I felt ten foot tall and bullet proof. Young, charming and usually drunk. Everthing just kept coming up roses.

 

[90sAesthetics]

I remember that a year ago everything was perfect and now I'm ready to ctb

Mate... You ain't kidding. A year ago this month, life was beaming.

Now it is in pieces. Beyond cracking at the edges. AND we gotta deal with this covid garbage horseshit.

My best days are wholely and absolutely behind me. Every day going forward, is another day life itself hits me over the head with a sledgehammer and stabs me in the heart by reminding me how great it all once was.

Hell I'll even go back 3 months. Infinitely better times.

 

[Nem]

I was doing much better before I met my ex and started taking meds, that was a very bad decision. The meds made things worse and nearly killed me in the end, I'm pretty lost today is an understatement
Peace/hugs

 

[braketimez]

It never was perfect, but I can remember when I was sharper, more intelligent, charismatic, creative, and musical. It's so painful to feel the difference between then and now.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

When I was age 18-22 life wasn't perfect but I was happy. I would give anything to have that time back. Now I'm left with nothing but regrets and what ifs thinking about what my life should have been.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I remember when my life was pretty good but I didn't realise it was good and I took it for granted and messed it up.
At the time I didn't realise how rubbish life can be, now I know.

 

[Life sucks]

Before years it was better for me and I could do or buy anything I wanted. But humans are shitty and toxic and life sucks anyway and ruins everything. Not to mention the biological body and shitty mental illnesses.

 

[Ashleyrodriguez]

I remember when my life was perfect, I didn't realize it at the time but now I do.

 

[Darkhaven]

I never had a "perfect life" but the more depressed and fucked up i get the more nostalgic i become.
Normally i had nostalgic feelings about my childhood. Nowadays, due to the fast rate at which my mental health is degrading, i often find myself feeling nostalgic about like last summer, which is very surprising because last summer i was already seriously depressed and planning to kill myself. The thing is, currently i'm such in a bad way that i'm starting to reminisce on times where i was already in a very bad state like they were good times, which, of course, they weren't. Not even close.

 

[Krislybear]

It never was perfect, but I can remember when I was sharper, more intelligent, charismatic, creative, and musical. It's so painful to feel the difference between then and now.

Same for me...I used to be so motivated and hard working. Right now I literally don't want to do anything because everything is boring. I can't even have a conversation with anyone anymore because it just feels like I have nothing to say or I just literally don't care.

 

[braketimez]

Same for me...I used to be so motivated and hard working. Right now I literally don't want to do anything because everything is boring. I can't even have a conversation with anyone anymore because it just feels like I have nothing to say or I just literally don't care.

That's exactly how I feel when talk with people, as well. I'm an empty cassette tape.

 

[Geodude77]

It wasn't perfect but I was feeling a lot better about a year ago

 

[GiveUp]

I remember that a year ago everything was perfect and now I'm ready to ctb

Same - one year ago everything was great and I was happy. Then it changed and went down and kept going down and everything went dark. I'm ready to go. When people say "life is a gift" I think they're being escapist. I'd like to return the gift now please.
I'm curious about the ones who, like me, once upon a time everything was fine and then it came crashing down. I'd love to hear your stories.

 

[oxymoron]

I remember that a year ago everything was perfect and now I'm ready to ctb

Yes, 2 years back.

 

[BeGone]

It has never been perfect for me, but there was one period when it was relatively good. That was between 2004 and 2007 when I wasn't looking as ugly as I currently do, had hopes for my future and have been feeling happier in general.

 

[Ashleyrodriguez]

It has never been perfect for me, but there was one period when it was relatively good. That was between 2004 and 2007 when I wasn't looking as ugly as I currently do, had hopes for my future and have been feeling happier in general.

So the reason you hate your life is because your physical appearance is ugly?

 

[BeGone]

So the reason you hate your life is because your physical appearance is ugly?

Not only, that's just one of the reasons.

 

[antler]

I don't think my life has ever really been perfect. There's been a few short stints where things have been somewhat okay more than not, but they've been pretty damn short. Even in those moments, there was still a lot of pain and fear. Maybe I just need a better attitude.