Venting Anyone else not want to die but feel like they have to for other people?

[failureofahuman]

I'm really scared of failing, of it hurting, and there's honestly a lot of things I enjoy about life. But I know a lot of people would be happier if I died. I cried about it just now. I used to want to die, now I'm not really so depressed. I hate it because I still feel the responsibility of needing to ctb, but I don't look forward to it. I wish I could live a normal life but I fucked up and I can never change the past. I can never have what I really want. It's all over and my life is a waste of the life I was given.

 

[sximii]

I wanna die because of my suffering, and it infuriates me how others believe they can dictate me. I believe ctb should be YOUR choice, and not anyone else's. So if you just feel like you 'should' die, don't do it.

 

[areyousafe??]

Why give them the pleasure of seeing you ctb?

 

[ramon]

From the day I was born I became a burden to my sibling.

Words express how much I am loved by such sibling... actions express otherwise.

Even as fully grown adults, I've been always an obstacle between my sibling and our parents' love.

Should I successfully CTB, sure my sibling will cry after knowing I'm dead; but getting over it will be quick and easy for this relative of mine.

This is just one of the reasons why I do want to die.

 

[Hystearical]

Why would they be happier if you died?

Doesn't your entitlement to existence supersede their glee at your demise?

 

[dimgobaith]

Yes, I need to die because it will be better for everyone if I do. I wish I didn't have to but heyho

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

OMFG, it's the complete opposite to me - I really want to CTB, am sure of that, but keep thinking about how it'll hurt others. From this semester it doesn't pass, hopefully =D