Anyone else not interested in anything?

[Kramer]

I looked up inexpensive hobbies and none look fun. I remember when I was around 25, I met a girl who was 29. She said nothing interested her and she was always bored. I now know how she feels. Her body language was that of a person completely detached from the world. I think I appear the same way when I'm not anxious.

 

[Silver]

Yeah, I'm bored but don't want to do anything :(

 

[Ae54rge]

Same here, just no motivation, already tried multiple things in life only to be disappointed with reality. To then spend the time in my own world in my own head to make those things what I wished them for. Just find it impossible to see the point in doing anything when I already know it will just hurt in the end.

 

[Mer]

I looked up inexpensive hobbies and none look fun. I remember when I was around 25, I met a girl who was 29. She said nothing interested her and she was always bored. I now know how she feels. Her body language was that of a person completely detached from the world. I think I appear the same way when I'm not anxious.

Unfortunately depression often kills people's former desires in hobbies.

I used to love reading. A lot, especially as a kid/teen, as it was my main way to escape reality.

But now, as an adult approaching her 31st birthday... I struggle to even read now. It's frustrating.

Thanks depression! /s

 

[Ae54rge]

Unfortunately depression often kills people's former desires in hobbies.

I used to love reading. A lot, especially as a kid/teen, as it was my main way to escape reality.

But now, as an adult approaching her 31st birthday... I struggle to even read now. It's frustrating.

Thanks depression! /s

Do you think this is the depression causing this?

I have the exact same feelings but I always put it down to knowing I was only doing what I was doing to block out everything else. As such I don't want to just try and occupy myself with meaningless tasks to occupy myself till I'm dead as to not face reality. Might aswell face it and end it sooner over wasting time?

 

[Kramer]

Do you think this is the depression causing this?

I have the exact same feelings but I always put it down to knowing I was only doing what I was doing to block out everything else. As such I don't want to just try and occupy myself with meaningless tasks to occupy myself till I'm dead as to not face reality. Might aswell face it and end it sooner over wasting time?

I feel similar. My pain comes from being fed up with pointless shows, movies, and books. I've lived with these distractions for years and they no longer satisfy. I want relationships but I don't see how it'd work since I'm on disability for ocd.

 

[drwt]

It is definitely depression. Pleasure receptors in your brain not firing correctly like they should.
I can feel maybe 0-10% of the fun from my hobbies that normal people love doing. In the good moments perhaps 30%? I'm making up random numbers but everything feels numb and uninteresting and it's more about wasting time than using time.

 

[sadworld]

It is definitely depression. Pleasure receptors in your brain not firing correctly like they should.
I can feel maybe 0-10% of the fun from my hobbies that normal people love doing. In the good moments perhaps 30%? I'm making up random numbers but everything feels numb and uninteresting and it's more about wasting time than using time.

same here

 

[Mer]

Do you think this is the depression causing this?

I have the exact same feelings but I always put it down to knowing I was only doing what I was doing to block out everything else. As such I don't want to just try and occupy myself with meaningless tasks to occupy myself till I'm dead as to not face reality. Might aswell face it and end it sooner over wasting time?

Yea, it's absolutely depression. Mine has been going on for 12 years, but mine in particular is also tied to season changes (winter depression is a thing) as well. I notice that as winter comes I feel even worse and my interest in reading dies for several months at a time.

Since I plan on CTB soon I'm trying to force myself to finish reading a couple of books I know I'd like more if it were not for my depression kicking into high gear.

 

[Ae54rge]

It is definitely depression. Pleasure receptors in your brain not firing correctly like they should.
I can feel maybe 0-10% of the fun from my hobbies that normal people love doing. In the good moments perhaps 30%? I'm making up random numbers but everything feels numb and uninteresting and it's more about wasting time than using time.

But were those pleasure receptors in the brain previously firing due to negative impacts from the outside, thus self stimulating happiness ?

Using hobbies to escape the negativity of real life, is not true happiness, IMO.

As such any previous positivity gained was in fact false and now due to your lack of self stimulation in your hobbies your unable to block out the negativity of real life.

I personally do not see it as you are depressed due to lack of previous self happiness, just that you are yet to find happiness without the attached negativity you used to need to escape from.

Everyone has a different tolerance to what and how much they can take before they break, the fact your still here and searching is hope

I feel like I am yet unable to find a new hobby or yet a previous without the attached negativity which I was unable to deal with, nothing more.

 

[Silver]

I used to read a lot too... Now I've read a quarter of a book (and lost interest in it) for the first time in a few months. I'm permanently bored and lonely but I don't want to do anything

 

[DockoftheBay]

I looked up inexpensive hobbies and none look fun. I remember when I was around 25, I met a girl who was 29. She said nothing interested her and she was always bored. I now know how she feels. Her body language was that of a person completely detached from the world. I think I appear the same way when I'm not anxious.

Only been like that for about 25 years now.

 

[Sherri]

The last thing I was interested was Netflix, now even that bores me.... so no nothing interest me anymore, except being here among you guys.

 

[WornOutLife]

Kinda.
I'm really into learning japanese these days so as to shut down for a while my CTB thoughts. Gaming also helps.

 

[Hoarsewithnoname]

It is definitely depression. Pleasure receptors in your brain not firing correctly like they should.
I can feel maybe 0-10% of the fun from my hobbies that normal people love doing. In the good moments perhaps 30%? I'm making up random numbers but everything feels numb and uninteresting and it's more about wasting time than using time.

This really resonated with me. It's true I've lost interest in doing things I used to like but it's so true that anything that should bring me pleasure barely registers on a pleasure scale and actually, often makes me feel worse.

Until I ctb in a few weeks I'm trying to keep busy by taking care of stuff I need to finish, but there are often just days I lie in bed and can't do a damn thing.

 

[Pointlesslife]

I looked up inexpensive hobbies and none look fun. I remember when I was around 25, I met a girl who was 29. She said nothing interested her and she was always bored. I now know how she feels. Her body language was that of a person completely detached from the world. I think I appear the same way when I'm not anxious.

I feel completely detached from the world and I think my body language often seems like that. I'm also not really interested in anything. I believe that the problem with everything is that it all comes and goes (is transient). Therefore everything outside of ourselves is useless.

 

[http-410]

Yes, I don't even care that I don't care.

 

[Pointlesslife]

Same here, just no motivation, already tried multiple things in life only to be disappointed with reality. To then spend the time in my own world in my own head to make those things what I wished them for. Just find it impossible to see the point in doing anything when I already know it will just hurt in the end.

I can relate to being disappointed with reality over and over again. Also because of that I cringe and get a tightness in my stomach over trying to accomplish anything because I know there's a 95% chance of it not working out. I'm working on certain things that will hopefully work out and make my life worthwhile, but it's sort of a longshot.

 

[Arrow]

the only thing that interests me anymore is cat related stuff on twitter

 

[Kramer]

I feel completely detached from the world and I think my body language often seems like that. I'm also not really interested in anything. I believe that the problem with everything is that it all comes and goes (is transient). Therefore everything outside of ourselves is useless.

You've reached enlightenment

 

[NightmareTour]

I can relate. Sometimes I find something vaguely interesting for a little while. Used to last maybe a month or two, but now I'm lucky if something keeps my attention for a couple of days. A few hours is the upper end of average. Nothing is ever as interesting as I expect. Doing things takes so much energy, too.

 

[EternalDreams]

I feel the same way. My mind just gives up as I try to do anything new or do the things I used to love. It's excruciating.

 

[NumbItAll]

I have no ambition in life, but there's still a couple things I enjoy doing. I got into disc golf this year, and it's a really fun outdoor activity even though I still suck at it. There have been times in life where I felt like nothing was enjoyable though.

 

[Symbiote]

I'm trapped in a marriage where hobbies and self improvement are frowned upon. Hate feeling guilty whenever I try to do something for myself.

 

[Kramer]

I'm trapped in a marriage where hobbies and self improvement are frowned upon. Hate feeling guilty whenever I try to do something for myself.

Is that typical of most marriages?

 

[Symbiote]

Is that typical of most marriages?

No I don't think so. Most marriages I've seen, there's equal autonomy and is less controlling. I was healthy going into this marriage, but I'm leaving broken and trying to find purpose again. At least I have a challenging job that stimulates my brain everyday.

 

[ForcedLifeResistant]

Unfortunately depression often kills people's former desires in hobbies.

I used to love reading. A lot, especially as a kid/teen, as it was my main way to escape reality.

But now, as an adult approaching her 31st birthday... I struggle to even read now. It's frustrating.

Thanks depression! /s

Perhaps it's as you say. You're simply struggling to read because of fatigue or something like that. However, I thought that that was the case for me as well. Now I think it was more of a comprehension problem. One that I think I've found an effective control over. Time will tell.

For me it was as though I was reading things too passively and I couldn't tell you what the paragragh I had just read was about, even immediately after reading it. The trick I arrived at was closing my eyes while reading.

Now that I've given you time to say wtf to yourself, what I mean is that you close them after reading a few words, try to anticipate the forthcoming words by contextualizing on the basis of what you've already read, then open your eyes and read the next words. Rinse and repeat.

To my thinking, the benefit of this is that it basically forces active reading. It also contrains your contemplations on the material because every time you're wrong about what it's about to say you'll immediately correct yourself by continuing to read. I find it rewarding to discover that my guesses are similar to what's acctually written, as well as learning through review that I'm actually getting something out of what I'm reading. This will obviously extend reading time, as it's adding a step.

Beyond that, in observance of principles coming from behavior analysis, I'm hoping that active reading will eventually be reinforced such that I no longer need to close my eyes while reading but I'm still unsure how the schedule part of schedules of reiforcement works.

 

[Antigonish]

Yep

 

[12345]

100% have no interests in anything - i feel so sad witnessing people who have genuine interests. Even alcohol makes me feel too sad so I miss out on that aspect of what could be fun.