Anyone else here thinking about ctb soon (today)?

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

How do you feel?
Personally, I feel such great pain that there is no way I can endure it any longer. I look forward to others sleeping so I can make an end of this.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

Definitely not today.

Plan on taking another OD next week, but that will be self harm.

The urge is growing.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Definitely not today.

Plan on taking another OD next week, but that will be self harm.

The urge is growing.

I'm probably going to end OD too, but I hope what I have it's enough with alcohol if I can't accomplish my plan with partial.

 

[Bedrock48]

How do you feel?
Personally, I feel such great pain that there is no way I can endure it any longer. I look forward to others sleeping so I can make an end of this.

I'd love to go to the bridge tonight but too drunk and too late to walk. I'll probably feel better tomorrow morning thought. My mood shifts never last long.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. Life really freaking hurts sometimes.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I'd love to go to the bridge tonight but too drunk and too late to walk. I'll probably feel better tomorrow morning thought. My mood shifts never last long.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. Life really freaking hurts sometimes.

yeah it hurts. I hope you feel better tomorrow ♥

 

[SelmaJezkova10]

Yep

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I can't even OD because someone has hidden all the right medicines out of the reach, so i just hope my belt holds my weight ... I understand why, but still don't, because I have been balanced for so long so no need. Probably he knows me just so well.

 

[hʚll]

if that's what you wish, i hope you will be in peace soon

 

[Toonloon]

Yes. Im planning it in case everything goes to complete shit soon. I'm losing weight again so I can hang myself or OD. Last time I was super skinny I almost succeeded in OD. I just miscalculated this time I won't. So mad I almost ctb but ended up back to this shit hole life.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

if that's what you wish, i hope you will be in peace soon

Unfortunately not. I have to wait to get out of here and live alone... Now I'm never completely alone and my ex knows what I want so he doesn't make things easy for me.

 

[hʚll]

Unfortunately not. I have to wait to get out of here and live alone... Now I'm never completely alone and my ex knows what I want so he doesn't make things easy for me.

i'm sorry for that.. i have the same problem kinda. hopefully you will have a chance to be alone for some time.
peace

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Yes. Im planning it in case everything goes to complete shit soon. I'm losing weight again so I can hang myself or OD. Last time I was super skinny I almost succeeded in OD. I just miscalculated this time I won't. So mad I almost ctb but ended up back to this shit hole life.

Yeah I'm little angry now because I had calculated all right and I collected the right drugs for a long time which I know are dangerous to me with alcohol (because my chronic illness), but because my ex cares about me; he has taken everything away and now I don't have any. And my partial failed again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Sorry to hear you are suffering so much, life can be painful. As for me, I am always thinking of ctb, but I doubt it will be any time soon but eventually in the future. I have the problem where it is hard for me to be left alone for a significant amount of time, and it holds me back.

 

[insanedoomer]

RIP , i'm jealous .

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

RIP , i'm jealous .

Unfortunately I'm still here, so don't be x)

 

[4rch4ng3l]

I did, not SN in my hand and i have to check the prep better. Still have doubts about how much of everything i should get, even what time before SN so yeah i need certain details. Can't wait though.

 

[UKscotty]

I wish. If I had the guts, I would go right now.

I am so jealous of those who have the courage to CTB. I have wanted it for so long.

Can't stand life but too much of a coward to end it. It sucks so bad being like this.