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tretion

tretion

i have a restraining order from god atp
Aug 28, 2025
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ocd isnt even the main reason im ctb overall but rn its pushing me towards it more and more, i hate how i cant catch a moment of peace ever
 
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PeaceSeeker83

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Jul 23, 2026
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I have chronic OCD, diagnosed over a decade ago. To be honest some of the symptoms have lessened but I also have chronic depression and anxiety. All 3 have made my life a misery for a very long time now.
 
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doneforlife

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Jul 18, 2023
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I have chronic OCD, diagnosed over a decade ago. To be honest some of the symptoms have lessened but I also have chronic depression and anxiety. All 3 have made my life a misery for a very long time now.
I have heard it has different types. What is your type ? Is it restricting your life to a point that it controls all aspects of your life.
 
tretion

tretion

i have a restraining order from god atp
Aug 28, 2025
155
I have chronic OCD, diagnosed over a decade ago. To be honest some of the symptoms have lessened but I also have chronic depression and anxiety. All 3 have made my life a misery for a very long time now.
i'm so sorry. I was doing good on mine, haven't had a super bad spiral in months, all a sudden last night though idek what happened but it hit hard i spent 4 hours going back and rereading the same thing over and over to keep checking if I was safe and when I was finally able to go to sleep i had nightmares about it I just woke up from one. I used to be like this every day last year but i thought i finally had it managed. i DID have it managed for a little bit. this is killing me. the nightmares are the worse part of it even in my sleep my brain has to torture me
 
PinkMeow

PinkMeow

wrong
May 27, 2023
12
Ive had weird episodes for about a year and my guess was OCD. The last time i went to see a psychiatrist i was told i am probably developing it.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Student
Jul 23, 2026
127
I have heard it has different types. What is your type ? Is it restricting your life to a point that it controls all aspects of your life.
My checking behaviours have lessened (thank goodness). Diagnosed with OCD and generalized anxiety disorder. Controls all aspects of my life unfortunately.
 
UglyLife82

UglyLife82

Member
Feb 25, 2025
54
Me. The thing that first made me genuinely consider CTB was my OCD.
 

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