Anyone else have a need for connection that surpasses your desire to die?

[Weebster]

I realized that that's why I'm still alive even though my life gets steadily worse. I didn't get the love and connection I was supposed to get as a child so I crave it like a junkie as an adult.

 

[Someone123]

I realized that that's why I'm still alive even though my life gets steadily worse. I didn't get the love and connection I was supposed to get as a child so I crave it like a junkie as an adult.

People do need this all of their lives, and not getting this as a child- it was the same situation for me as a child- means you typically don't learn the social skills needed to get this as an adult- at least to the extent that a person really needs this, which is a lot. You can learn to improve your social skills and make things better, but it's not easy- help from others who care is so essential.

 

[Weebster]

People do need this all of their lives, and not getting this as a child- it was the same situation for me as a child- means you typically don't learn the social skills needed to get this as an adult- at least to the extent that a person really needs this, which is a lot. You can learn to improve your social skills and make things better, but it's not easy- help from others who care is so essential.

My social skills are not bad unless my ptsd is hitting me hard that day then my anxiety interferes.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

A romantic connection, yes but I'm so depressed, I can't even take care of myself. I do think that if I was in a good relationship, I'd be less inclined to CTB.

It's a catch 22. A relationship would help ease my depression (maybe) but i'm too depressed to make an effort.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I realized that that's why I'm still alive even though my life gets steadily worse. I didn't get the love and connection I was supposed to get as a child so I crave it like a junkie as an adult.

Unfortunately it's so true. I realized a lot this year. It sucks because it's not our fault but now we have to deal with it. It makes me angry sometimes through my parents.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I think it used to, but now the desire to die is winning out. I'll still give the need for connection a few more months though even though it's likely never going to get met.

 

[Weebster]

I think it used to, but now the desire to die is winning out. I'll still give the need for connection a few more months though even though it's likely never going to get met.

Do you feel a steady sense of longing?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Do you feel a steady sense of longing?

Definitely, have all my life.

 

[Weebster]

Definitely, have all my life.

How common is that feeling you think?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

How common is that feeling you think?

Don't know, maybe more than it seems but not by much.