anyone else has a supportive family and still wants to ctb?

[DreamEnd]

My family has been nothing short of a miracle but my mental health issues are causing me to have a lot of suicidal ideation. I am not sure how to go about that.
i haven't opened up about them yet because I do not want to disappoint them.

 

[nys]

Mine can be supportive sometimes and I think they'd probably miss me if I ctb'd. That and SI are the main reasons I keep delaying my ctb date. I don't think they know about my mental health issues either so if I ctb'd they would be completely unprepared. They never would have expected it at all ): I still want to ctb though but I feel bad about it because of my parents

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't have any problems with my family, and if I was to die today they would be very upset, but I could never stay alive only for others no matter what. It would be selfish of them to expect me to and after all I never asked for this awful, pointless existence. My reason for still being alive is that because I have limited access to methods and suicide is just so difficult.

 

[Idontmatter]

My husband is very supportive but my mental issues are out of control (anxiety and depression). I keep delaying my ctb but I've started planning again to hopefully do it in a few weeks. I've lost any hope in getting better.

 

[Wilting Daisy]

Supportive parents tend to be supportive even during hardship.
I think it's far more likely that they'll show concern and be proud of you for reaching out ❤
Honesty and openness is a good way to approach this.
You could tell them that you've been struggling, and how. Then suggest a resource you think might help (talk therapy with a school psychologist or outside professional is a good place to start). This will help get their wheels turning so they realize the severity and can think of similar ways to help you.

Suffering is very individual. You're not any less worthy of help because you have a family that loves you.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yes my mother is wonderful, although my siblings are useless and no support at all. I miss my dad and grandparents who were also wonderful and I can't cope with the losses and I hate being me. I have to CTB to get away from myself and I hope my mother understands it's nothing she's done or not done I just can't cope or function with life. If I weigh things up I have the capacity to make her more miserable sticking around the way I feel and how negative I am. I feel guilty of course but I know this mind and body is broken and I need to go.

 

[SuzeWantsOut]

I have a hateful family. They enjoy finding out whrn things have been rough for me. They loved, loved, loved, hearing gossip about my suicide attempt 12 years ago. That's their idea of a good time. I'm the family scapegoat. I would not care one bit if I do succeed in ending my life, what they think. They have put me in greater danger mental health and re suicide by their laughter over it.

Then there's the family I created or tried to create whrn I had children with a wolf in sheep's clothing. He has fully trained all of my children to shun me. I am 100% ignored for all holidays, bdays, mums day, etc.

I have no one. There is not one person on this earth who cares about me, other than men who pay me to use my body and pretend I'm their girlfriend.

Other than my dog, live a loveless existence. I'm currently living ok'ing for a rescue group for my dog because even if I'm too chicken to really die, I can't keep subjecting this innocent animal to the horrror of my depression. She deserves better. I would probably not be alive now had it not been for her, but I can't keep this up with her. She needs more.

Family? Human family? None. I have tormentors, people who are thrilled to hurt me.

If you do have loving, supportive family, envy you. Please try to let them love you. No one loves me. I'd give anything for love. I love my dog. That's why I have to let her go.

 

[MakeUpAName4Me]

I wish my mama would understand that there was no saving her child when I go but she never will. I'll make my family suffer to stop my suffering…but what gives me solace is the fact that time is an illusion and when they are on there deathbed they'll say the same thing everyone says when they're on it, that it went by so fucking fast…they won't suffer long fortunately…