anyone else feels like talking makes them worse?

[c4di]

whenever i talk to someone about my life and problems i feel horrible. it makes me really realise how bad and hopeless it is and it just reminds me of why i want to kill myself. i haven't ever talked to someone and felt better so i dont even know what it supposed to be like. anyone else feels like this?

 

[Surdfieldharvester]

Yes! I think it's also compounded by the other mental illnesses I have, when you try to collect the scattered, jumbled vectors all together it seems insurmountable.

 

[woodlandcreature]

yes, and honestly speaking to people about anything at all does this. makes me remember how inhuman i am. that i should never have existed

 

[58Alice85]

yeah it's depressing, especially if the other person is doing well and has all kinds of things going on in their life

 

[Macedonian1987]

yeah it's depressing, especially if the other person is doing well and has all kinds of things going on in their life

That's why I stopped talking to anyone about my depression and suicidality a long time ago. Talking about it is only making me feel worse.

 

[SteamaHorns]

It pretty much always made me feel worse because the person would in some way invalidate the things I was feeling. Usually the person, whether intentional or not, would cut my vent short and would stop me from talking about everything that was on my mind. It was either that or the person would just respond with some futile advice that I had heard countless times, usually in some way invalidating what I was feeling. Ironically I think what would help me most is if someone just genuinely acknowledged what I was feeling and saying without trying to change them, but that's inherently what we all do. Just need to find others who share your views I guess.

 

[huhokaythen]

it's honestly so awkward opening up to other people, i also feel bad for them because some may not know what to say or how to react. that's why i stopped talking about my life to people unless they're my psychiatrist/therapist!

 

[kasa]

Yeah. A few days ago, i had to talk to someone (not family) about an accident that happened to me (i didn't really have a choice). They kept saying things like, "That's all in the past. You need to think about the future. I've been through tough times too, everyone has it hard, but I didn't just sit around doing nothing like you." I mean, they're not wrong, and i know that… but it felt like they didn't understand me at all. It was awful. I'm scared going to a psychiatrist might be the same kind of thing, so I just… don't go lol

 

[Cauliflour]

Well usually I feel worse because now the person I'm talking to is calling me an idiot for being like this. "Talk to someone!" my ass. How about you get these people to mind their damn business instead?

And also I'm not even really like mentally ill at all. My actions are perfectly justified if people actually bothered to listen to me, but they don't. I'm just a teary eyed white girl really.