TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
I did years of therapy and medication. Didn't help. Ptsd and ocd are a living nightmare.
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iftheworldwasending
My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 133
yes. my ocd is so bad right now. i feel you.
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
The therapy for ocd is worse than ocd. It's so evil
iftheworldwasending
My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 133
couldn't agree more. exposure is fucking awful. i'm here if you ever need someone to talk to while i'm still here.
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
iftheworldwasending
My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 133
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
iftheworldwasending
My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 133
not sure, that's why i'm on here.
_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,170
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
Contamination, checking. It's also destroyed reading for me. I reread sentences because I don't feel like I'm understanding everything.
iftheworldwasending
My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 133
a lot of counting and a lot lot lot of cleanliness in the sense of like i have to shower over and over and over until i feel clean, and then i feel like i have bugs on me, and have to shower again and again and again. i spend hours and hours. it's horrendous.
yes i have contamination as well. at the risk of triggering others i won't go into details, but i struggle immensely with eating.
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
Tasdevil
Student
- Jan 20, 2020
- 115
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
How has it affected your life?
Private conversation isn't working
Tasdevil
Student
- Jan 20, 2020
- 115
Afftected my relationships and my mental health over the years. It's not something I like to talk about to much it opens to many bad memories.
mahakaliSS_MahaDurga
Visionary
- Apr 2, 2020
- 2,399
You have to be here 24 hours before you can send private messages.
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
mahakaliSS_MahaDurga
Visionary
- Apr 2, 2020
- 2,399
Maybe it's 48 hours then, I'm not quite sure.
AprilsBlessings
Our tainted history is playing on repeat
- Jul 26, 2020
- 172
yes i've been bullied and emotionally abused by family members almost everyday, Now i'm dealing with C-PTSD and BDD.
and i think it's one of the reasons that i'm a misanthrope now..
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,028
24 and X amount of posts. I'm not 100% sure what X is though. I stumbled upon this in faq or something like that
I was abused from 0-3 and then things were ok until I was 11. Then I was abused from 11-16. Yeah I have no idea what that ok patch was. But even that "ok patch" was spent with adults silently arguing over me and trying to buy me and others getting pissed off and getting rid of it.Last edited:I was verbally and physically abused as a child by my father. Don't know why but he seemed to take all his frustrations out on me whenever he was stressed out.
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Warlock
- Jul 31, 2020
- 727
I was not sexually violated but my father beat me a lot after a few years I created Post-traumatic stress disorder
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
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Warlock
- Jul 31, 2020
- 727
Well it created a fearful and coward child who did nothing when he was beaten by other boys / girls at school, my father did not need reasons to beat me and imagine if he received the news that I had a fight at school, this is like a looping of pain that never ends, bad memories at my house will never leave my head and when I'm having a psychotic break everything intensifies and I go crazy looking at these places, for a long time I wanted to hurt him the same way he hurt me
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
I'm sorry that happened. I'm a fearful coward as an adult despite outwardly looking like someone who's strong. I'm constantly dashing people's first impression of me. It sucks seeing the change in their eyes as they discover I'm a weak coward.
Xocoyotziin
Scorpion
- Sep 5, 2020
- 402
Psychologically by my father. The rest of my family aside from my mother and brother were just uncaring, don't really even think of them as family. Not out of malice but because the feeling is just absent. Not nearly as bad as a lot of what people here go through but it definitely shaped me in some not so good ways.
albino_elk
im infj with bpd=dysfunctional trash
- Aug 25, 2020
- 233
My stepfather choked me so many times, he loved to hit me , thats how he expressed sadness of his. I was raped when i was 7-8yeara old ( dude in a neighbourhood tricked me to come to his hause and then drugged me)
School was a hell , i always was a silent kid and bullies love those ones to assert their dominance and to be on a top of their pack lmao..
My life always felt too hard to handle and i was too young and unaducated to ask for help which caused deep depression. I had to learn to live with my anxieties and depression. But somehow i learned to see small things that matter and enjoy them:}
Good4Nothing
Unlovable
- May 8, 2020
- 1,860
Physically abused by my biological father until 2 or 3, psychologically and emotionally abused by my step father from then on.
TreizKhushranata
The cup of life has been poisoned forever.
- Sep 26, 2020
- 81
Good4Nothing
Unlovable
- May 8, 2020
- 1,860
No self esteem, low confidence, as others have said I have difficulty standing up for myself. I suppress my emotions, and I don't ask questions for clarity when something confuses me, because I wasn't allowed to cry or laugh, and I wasn't allowed to ask questions. I have the emotional maturity of a teenager because I was never allowed to express or explore my emotions.
I think I'm good for nothing and can't do anything right, because that's what I was taught as a child. I'm socially retarded because I was taught not to speak unless spoken to, and the things I say tend to come across as critical and judgemental, even though they're not meant that way, because that was all I heard growing up.
I'm sure it's affected me in many other ways, those are just what I can think of off the top of my head.Similar threads
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