Anyone diagnosed with unipolar depression?

[aeris]

Years passed by since I've seen a psychiatrist but I just can't get rid of it.

 

[JayJay]

Isn't that just MDD? Yea I've been diagnosed with.

 

[aeris]

Isn't that just MDD? Yea I've been diagnosed with.

Yeah, I am just looking for a way to overcome the nothingness. Each day feels so grey and dull, like a foggy and windy memory from the past. Do you do anything like do you have any hobbies? I tried to find an activity to maybe idk spend some good time or leave less hours of doing nothing. I just can't enjoy drawing or reading or talking anymore. My only habit for these few years have been either drinking with friends or spending time with my boyfriend. It's been 6 months since he left the country and our long distance relationship phase is about to come to an end soon. I'll also be leaving in a month or two. I should be excited about it, instead I'm here and crying over being left behind and left alone. I dropped out of university, cut all my ties with my friends, rarely speak with my family even though we live together. AND STILL don't worry about any of these as much as I worry about him. He's a good one it's just me that can't keep it together, I feel like lacking something I can't quite point at. One person is enough to keep the fog away for me but me myself and I am not enough for myself, I just don't get it.

 

[JayJay]

Yeah, I am just looking for a way to overcome the nothingness. Each day feels so grey and dull, like a foggy and windy memory from the past. Do you do anything like do you have any hobbies? I tried to find an activity to maybe idk spend some good time or leave less hours of doing nothing. I just can't enjoy drawing or reading or talking anymore. My only habit for these few years have been either drinking with friends or spending time with my boyfriend. It's been 6 months since he left the country and our long distance relationship phase is about to come to an end soon. I'll also be leaving in a month or two. I should be excited about it, instead I'm here and crying over being left behind and left alone. I dropped out of university, cut all my ties with my friends, rarely speak with my family even though we live together. AND STILL don't worry about any of these as much as I worry about him. He's a good one it's just me that can't keep it together, I feel like lacking something I can't quite point at. One person is enough to keep the fog away for me but me myself and I am not enough for myself, I just don't get it.

I'm on the same boat tbh. I've been having anedonia as well. What brought me joy was playing video games, taking walks in nature, smoking pot, and hanging out with a close friend. it's really hard for me to enjoy those activities again. I don't have a lot of friends either. I realized most of my relationships were fake and people only wanted to talk to me when it was convenient or when their other friends were busy.

 

[aeris]

I'm on the same boat tbh. I've been having anedonia as well. What brought me joy was playing video games, taking walks in nature, smoking pot, and hanging out with a close friend. it's really hard for me to enjoy those activities again. I don't have a lot of friends either. I realized most of my relationships were fake and people only wanted to talk to me when it was convenient or when their other friends were busy.

Thank you for reaching out anyway, wishing you best of luck. Hope we find a way to get out of this cycle. I know how it feels to be ripped off from your own life out of blue