Anyone dealing with extreme loniness and isolation

[Enabran255]

Oh, you live where theres nature. I'll trade you some ghetto neighbors and homeless crackheads for some snow and ticks LOL

Hell I'll take ALL your biting bugs if you take my neighbors lol

lol, the end result is it seems that walking is a nightmare equally for both of us. Lots of guns around here, open carry and during hunting season anyone who ventures out knows to wear bright orange to not be mistaken for game.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

lol, the end result is it seems that walking is a nightmare equally for both of us. Lots of guns around here, open carry and during hunting season anyone who ventures out knows to wear bright orange to not be mistaken for game.

Im still jealous of your biting bugs lol

 

[mediocre]

I've been isolated since I was 12. After all this time I am used to it now and most of the time it doesn't bother me as much as my many other problems. The only person I have now is my mum and if she goes anytime soon I will have no reason to live any longer. People live for other people. When you have nobody there is no point to life.

 

[I_love_to_bake]

lol, the end result is it seems that walking is a nightmare equally for both of us. Lots of guns around here, open carry and during hunting season anyone who ventures out knows to wear bright orange to not be mistaken for game.

Having lived in both. The city is 1000x worse than living in the woods. But that's just my opinion, and people stress me out too much to function. So

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

I've been isolated since I was 12. After all this time I am used to it now and most of the time it doesn't bother me as much as my many other problems. The only person I have now is my mum and if she goes anytime soon I will have no reason to live any longer. People live for other people. When you have nobody there is no point to life.

My experience is, people are mostly bad. When theres no good ppl to live for, help animals. Volunteer to help rescue agencies. The ppl who are involved with animal rescue are typically the best ppl alive. And animals are pure and innocent. The only ppl i do not recommend help with animals are ppl w certain personality disorders where they have no conscience. My life is 100% empty and I hurt every minute. The only time I feel better is knowing Im helping a sweet innocent soul.
Also, the ppl on this site are really great too. Bc they know suffering. Suffering teaches kindness. You can post and write to ppl on here and get really nice responses.

 

[thepolarbear]

Yeah this isolation is no different to normal life for me.

Yeah same lol.

I got no one. Sometimes I try to reach out, but people just ignore.

 

[Blutsager]

If you have a computer, there are many ways to have a more distant contact with people, not necesarily joining chats or other places where you will need to fully socialize, but things like for instance playing roleplaying games that require you to chat a lot with other people, but only in-character of the game you are playing. A great example would be Space Station 13. Alternatively, playing tabletop games online, like playing D&D on RollD20, can help.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

If you have a computer, there are many ways to have a more distant contact with people, not necesarily joining chats or other places where you will need to fully socialize, but things like for instance playing roleplaying games that require you to chat a lot with other people, but only in-character of the game you are playing. A great example would be Space Station 13. Alternatively, playing tabletop games online, like playing D&D on RollD20, can help.

I miss being close to someone. Cooking dinner. Watching a movie. Talking abt things. Snuggling on the couch. I think my first bf in my 20s was probably the healthiest relationship I had. I think he married the girl he went out w after me.

 

[Blutsager]

I miss being close to someone. Cooking dinner. Watching a movie. Talking abt things. Snuggling on the couch. I think my first bf in my 20s was probably the healthiest relationship I had. I think he married the girl he went out w after me.

This is why I am a 27 yo virgin. I don't want a relationship, for happiness seems to only lead to disappointment.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

This is why I am a 27 yo virgin. I don't want a relationship, for happiness seems to only lead to disappointment.

The memory is nice though.

 

[NonDefaultOption]

I've grown accustomed to isolation, being on the internet numbs the pain nicely and adds novelty and a bit of that social feeling you want, when you express yourself on forums like these. I do a private video diary too sometimes, to express myself better and to just talk out and kinda pretend like someone might watch even though I don't put it for public to see. I don't care too much if people consider it ridiculous, I've pissed my pants on purpose in a public place in rush hour and done other actually embarassing things so that is nothing.

It's a good idea to try be sociable even in the internet and reply others with some substance and try avoid the "I'm better and know better" thing and just speak your mind instead, even if it means you say "that sucks" or "I don't like the way he talked" or something. There's a time and a place for that too, not always not to everyone, but it makes you have more integrity if you can voice out those kinda feelings too, and that'll make you be taken more of a person of substance and someone worth listening to just because they can say things how they see them.

 

[Anchors]

I am very isolated too. Drifted apart from all my friends, it's torture to see them on social media having the time of their lives while I'm just alone and pathetic. I don't want this lifestyle but it seems impossible that things will get better. My social skills are very poor and I've missed out on so many formative experiences that most people have had by my age. I feel like my development is stunted, and I'll be stuck living like an overgrown, isolated kid forever. All I do is consume media which often makes me feel worse anyway because it's saturated with people showcasing their normal social lives. In comedies I'm the butt of the joke. But this is my life and it's real and painfully unfulfilling

 

[Pisceslilith]

Yes, and it's really getting to me, it's killing me inside. I have no desire to be me anymore. It's been 6 or 7 years now. It would be so nice to be "normal"

 

[ots]

I'm slowly but surely losing touch with all my friends. I was never much into going out but would enjoy the occassional night with friends somewhere. Now social situations seem to just make me more depressed than if I stayed at home. Corona virus was a some what convenient excuse to not do anything for my birthday, because I wasn't looking forward to that. I'd like to think next year I'll celebrate my birthday but I'm sure things will be the same as they are now; just with an extra year's worth of evidence that things don't get better.

 

[Blutsager]

Guys,

Why don't we take this opportunity to get in touch with one another? of all here present on this thread.
We can be more open about our visions of the future, and our hopes of not being in it, as we all know why we are here in this forum, and how open about such topics we are. To be in company with one another.

 

[Final Escape]

Having lived in both. The city is 1000x worse than living in the woods. But that's just my opinion, and people stress me out too much to function. So

I moved out of the big city because I was afraid of the misery that will be unleashed as people go hungry and rioting. Domestic violence and crime will certainly increase. I'm staying with an older man who had helped me out when I got busted for prostitution a couple times lol! He's just a friend but he's been the only person I feel safe staying with who won't take advantage of me or try to be exploitative.

 

[Blutsager]

I moved out of the big city because I was afraid of the misery that will be unleashed as people go hungry and rioting. Domestic violence and crime will certainly increase. I'm staying with an older man who had helped me out when I got busted for prostitution a couple times lol! He's just a friend but he's been the only person I feel safe staying with who won't take advantage of me or try to be exploitative.

I am so happy for you my friend, it sounds beautiful.
Indeed, my mind was and is filled with similar horrible images as I am on an apartment now in the capital of my country.
I told my mom if we could leave, to somewhere more calm... smaller. She has done many works of charity around my country, which has lead her into the most isolated communities, be it poor or native reservoirs, around the country. I was hoping we could go there, even though I have always loved my apartment and are very clearly a city rat, I still see how living our last days in the nature would have been more appealing.
She refused, partly arguing she ain't gonna leave her parents here, and that they couldn't be transported all over the country, and partly due to her not sharing my pessimism.

Well, now I have to admit I am enjoying my time in front of my PC. And I do have my SN ready to meet a quick end should it come to it. So I guess everything is fine. As fine as it could be.

Hope you are having a wonderful time there.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Im lonely too. I hate being locked up too. There are free learning sites on the internet, you can learn to code and all kinds of stuff. You can binge netflix. I understand nothing comes close to fixing that feeling. Nothing comes close to fixing it for me thats for sure. I spend my days trying to distract myself. This site helps.

What job is it good to have an overthinking mind? Seriously I need to apply once this insanity is over with

I worked in a newsroom juggling lots of stories and projects at once. It was existing in a constant hyped up state, at least until I got used to the stress and jaded.
My ability to keep lots of things in my thoughts at once helped multi tasking but I don't recommend it - it's not healthy, even if you thrive off stress.
I'm not like that anymore.

 

[Lunaloveflood]

I feel so alone but I know I am not alone I just can't bond with people I don't know why and it makes me hate my self so much because I know it's only my fault

 

[itsallover]

I just wanna go back to work if my health will allow it. You usually make the most friends either at school or work and more from there on. But yeah me not being able to work for almost four years has left me in a cave pretty much. Is there anything you wanna do if you're not already working or any hobby you wanna try out?

 

[sunny.sativa]

I've lost trust in people and hate when I feel lonely because I do this to myself. I isolate myself because I know people aren't trustworthy and making friends is foolish. I hate feeling lonely because there's no way to fix it that I'm okay with.. so it's this cycle of loneliness and distrust and confusion..
I understand you.

 

[littlemisssunshine]

I play lots of games on my phone, look at forums, spend lots of time on YouTube etc. Look at places I would love to travel and imagine what I would do if I had people to do stuff with. I want to do more reading and start doing art too.

 

[BlackPoppet]

Guys,

Why don't we take this opportunity to get in touch with one another? of all here present on this thread.
We can be more open about our visions of the future, and our hopes of not being in it, as we all know why we are here in this forum, and how open about such topics we are. To be in company with one another.

Yeah I'm up for that! Great idea!

 

[Celeste]

In my case I go to twitch and youtube. There is always something to see and I entertain myself a lot there. Listening music helps me a lot as well. Videogames and writing too. Make a list on a paper and brainstorm things you would love to do online and offline and make them happen.

 

[Golden-Ivory]

Wishing u all the best hun i know what its like <3

 

[Arrow]

i like being alone. i feel like i cant be myself around other people.

 

[torturedbylife]

I don't have anyone either and I cry every night about it. I don't know what to do since everyone I try to befriend is uninterested in me and pushes me aside...

 

[Disco Biscuit]

I'm in the same situation. This is my normal life and I don't have any friends.

Every bad or uncomfortable thought is accompanied by suicidal thoughts as well.

 

[SipSop]

I isolated myself because of my father as he is a chaotic, unfeeling human being who wants to control everything and talks all the time even if you want to listen or not. I believed that I can tolerate being alone but I need human interaction to function properly, to be in good mental health. Is difficult as I was raised to not trust many people and to be picky with whom I am friends with. This turned against me in the long-run.

 

[enough of this]

I deal with it every day, and have all my life. I've never fit in, anywhere.