Anyone curious about how others will react after you're gone?

[TheFifthDay]

I'm curious how the news would spread and how people would react. I have a few friends I talk to and some I no longer do, and classmates I haven't even thought of since high school. I know roughly how my family members would react but I'm curious about everyone else. Who would be sad? Who would not really care? Who would geniunely be impacted by me disappearing one day? Who would "wish they were there for me"? It sucks how I'll never know

 

[milkyfxck]

i know a handful of people would be affected when i finally ctb. from past partners to former classmates to friends to siblings to relatives to parents to even fucking dogs, it's pathetic that even knowing people would be absolutely heartbroken isn't enough to sway me. really shows character, huh?

 

[Pookie]

The world will stop spinning, the birds will stop singing, there'll be major traffic jams and the people who knew me will get hysterical and stop living. Nah, just kidding. I will inevitably hurt a few people but life goes on and with time their grief won't be so raw. But my mother will never get over my death, that I know for a fact. And it makes me feel so guilty. :(

 

[life-eternal]

The world will stop spinning, the birds will stop singing, there'll be major traffic jams and the people who knew me will get hysterical and stop living. Nah, just kidding. I will inevitably hurt a few people but life goes on and with time their grief won't be so raw. But my mother will never get over my death, that I know for a fact. And it makes me feel so guilty. :(

My exact same problem =(

 

[TheFifthDay]

The world will stop spinning, the birds will stop singing, there'll be major traffic jams and the people who knew me will get hysterical and stop living. Nah, just kidding. I will inevitably hurt a few people but life goes on and with time their grief won't be so raw. But my mother will never get over my death, that I know for a fact. And it makes me feel so guilty. :(

I don't really feel any guilt. The people that really know me kinda know what to expect and those that don't are basically strangers but I'm still curious how they'd act. Probably the most guilt I feel is an old friend from high school. We're both doing the same kinda wishing to never have existed and coping one unhealthy way or another while mooching off a relative and barely socializing even with each other. We relate hard and it kinda sucks to leave him alone cuz while he uses discord a bunch I don't think he really has anyone else

 

[moonchild]

I think about this a lot. Not so much in that I feel guilty or that it matters very much what people will think, but I just want to know. The fact that I'll never be able to find out just makes me even more curious...

 

[in hell out soon]

The same way they do in life ultimately. They just won't care and they'll continue with their days as normal. Not even a blip.

At the most there'll be some performative crocodile tears but then I'll be forgotten as quickly as I already am in life.

I just don't matter much to anyone. And it pisses me off when people pretend they care because 10 times out of 10 they're just doing it as a performance. And they don't actually care, ultimately. They're just waiting for you to finish so they can tell you how much worse their life is.

 

[lugerepair]

I can easily guess how people would react, so I'm not really that curious about it. I know some people would be very deeply affected. I've witnessed the aftermaths of several suicides. I know how it affects people. Makes me feel like I'm stuck here, because I can't bear the guilt.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

This is lowkey what holds me back, I just wish I could know

 

[TheFifthDay]

I can easily guess how people would react, so I'm not really that curious about it. I know some people would be very deeply affected. I've witnessed the aftermaths of several suicides. I know how it affects people. Makes me feel like I'm stuck here, because I can't bear the guilt.

Yeah you can definitely guess but I wanna actually see, which would be impossible. I've never lost anyone in life to any kind of death so that has me extra curious in a way

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

Yeah you can definitely guess but I wanna actually see, which would be impossible. I've never lost anyone in life to any kind of death so that has me extra curious in a way

I wonder if there's a God and if he can allow us to see it

 

[Pen>Sword]

My parents and siblings loves me unconditionally, so they will be utterly depressed if they found out that I committed suicide. This is holding me back significantly.

As for my friends, it will shake them, but just temporarily. They will move on. They'll remember me once in a while, but suicide ends misery, so there's nothing to be sad about, really.

 

[booray]

I don't want to think about it, because if I did, it would keep from ctb. And I definitely don't want to stay here any longer than I have to with this horrible depression and anxiety.

 

[TheFifthDay]

I wonder if there's a God and if he can allow us to see it

My belief is that there is a higher power, but no god. We're just a byproduct of the universe's existence. And honestly, if there was a god he'd have a lot to answer for

 

[TSCursor]

yeah, and thats a reason why i wondering about ctb, my sis did it first, so just thinking about my parents losing another one is harmful

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I couldn't care less, just get me outta here!

I wonder if there's a God and if he can allow us to see it

Oh for goodness sake... :/

 

[wordsonscreen]

If possible, I'll watch in ghost form :p

 

[leaf23]

Not really curious because I know all of them will be ok & will bounce back quickly; I'm not anyone's most important person after all right now

 

[Trisolaris]

Don't care how others will react, just want it to end.

 

[Bigpink]

People treat me as if I'm not here anyway so can't see how it would make a difference. Apart from ma being sad the world will be indifferent. Just want to go.

 

[undersea_water]

Honestly i don't think about that, i'm more conserned about myself.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

My mother was the last person to "know" me. Everyone else is a store clerk I smile at while handing them money. People don't care about the hands that give them small-cash, at least I don't think. I guess it's a small blessing not to have to think about a single other person as you plan.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

All of my family members would become severely depressed at best. It's basically a hostage situation

 

[Makko]

My boss would probably suicide too. All those projected profits, gone with the wind...

 

[Meretlein]

I hate thinking about stuff like that. I hate the despair it will cause my family and close friends and they questions they will ask. I hate that people in my work will find out as I find it embarrassing.

 

[plough22]

People was fane their sympathies and get on with their life. You are a fleeting memory, remember that even to your closet friends. They move on like work, replaced and forgotten

 

[Lmd]

Not really. Some will be sad for a time and that's all. I know I make more suffering being alive.

 

[Shades of Grey]

I don't have many close connections anymore. At all. Strained family relationships (I just bring a bunch of unnecessary stress and consternation to the table) and few if any close friends these days. I am sure that a handful of people will be upset initially, but they'll most likely get on with their lives once the shock wears off. Most will almost certainly be better off in the end.

The reality is, people are consumed with their own lives. Especially right now. Even the small handful of people who know I was hospitalized a few months ago don't really check in anymore. I get it, and quite frankly, the more disengaged I am, the easier it is to stop worrying about what others might think, which makes progressing towards the inevitable a little less uncomfortable on my end. There's nothing they could ultimately do to stop me, so it probably makes it a little easier on everyone to cut the cord while I'm still alive... that way the attachment is already minimal when I die, and hopefully the response will be too.

 

[nasblue]

I had such ideations a lot when I first started being suicidal but not anymore. I guess I've become a lot more jaded, but I also think such ideations fall into two categories. Either you are really empathetic and thinking about your actions automatically entails thinking about their effects on other people, or you see suicide as a form of attention-grabbing or revenge, which would be motivated more by spite and egocentrism.

 

[imsorrythatimhere]

Yes. I know some people who probably wouldn't be surprised at all, but I mainly wonder what my parents would feel. And a few acquaintances.