Anyone considering ctb due to betrayal?

[Hope:-)]

I've been viciously betrayed by people. I don't want to say who because sometimes the police search people's internet activity after suicide I first tried to get help for a problem I have when I was 22 and instead was abjectly blamed for it. I am now 34 and have many wasted years.

Anyone else here because they were betrayed?

 

[Graytaichi]

Seems like u been jailed for being betrayed. It sucks. 34yrs , u still have a chance in life

 

[Lone Wanderer]

No, but being betrayed by people you love & know really does take a toll on one's life. I'm sorry that's happened to you. You can't really trust anyone these days.

 

[hellispink]

Betrayal left me bleeding, left me broken and lost, never stops. How big is the pain it has caused me, It is one of the biggest reasons I am ending it.

 

[Burner1234]

Not exactly, but I do know the feeling of betrayal, that cuts so deeply. I mean, man, I was there for these people and helped them out when they needed it and that just makes it even worse. I even defended them when odds were against them, stuck up for them, just for me to get tossed aside later. Man that hurt super bad. It's why I rarely help anyone anymore. It screwed me up to an extent.

 

[Lone Wanderer]

Betrayal left me bleeding, left me broken and lost, never stops. How big is the pain it has caused me, It is one of the biggest reasons I am ending it.

It's one of the worst feelings. I'm sorry that you were betrayed. If you do consider ending your life I hope you find peace in the next life.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I too was betrayed. I was never happy being alive, but I was making it work. I was successful and actually had hope that things might turn around. Someone with whom I placed all my trust and gave so much of my love, energy, and even resources to, turned against me. His betrayal took away everything in my life that was good. So yes, I'm here because I was betrayed. I might still be here if I wasn't, but I don't know that for sure. The actions of my Judas brought me to this point and this site.

 

[Euthanza]

Many betrayals at some points in life even from the closest ones, but mostly they just ignore me unless they need something from me, sucks to be human

 

[fastFWD]

get even first? ignore me ofc im crazy ^^

 

[Graytaichi]

I was betrayed. Trusted people. Even a couple were long time friends. They stole the keys to my apt and new condo while I was in the hospital and threw out almost everything I owned. I now lost both living spaces and my belongings and job and I am homeless and starving everyday smelling like urine with rotting teeth and my skin bleeding. I need to die not bc I am suicidal but out of necessary and human dignity and torture. Please help.

Fuck them..

 

[Cryptonite]

Betrayed by my uncaring parents and two absolutely incompetent doctors who misdiagnosed my developmental spinal disease, Scheuermann's disease. The rage is real. It could have been cured and I would be able to live a completely normal life. Funnily enough, before that I suffered from a very severe mental illness that I was able to get cured only through luck and determination. I thought I had a life ahead of me, but no. Violent thoughts on my mind 24/7. I'm sending complaints to different institutions and writing bad reviews online, but obviously, everyone is laughing at me. These doctors just told me it wasn't their fault and that's it. They don't care about one patient who lost his life.

I've just recently heard about a guy who visited an ATC who let the plane with his wife + children go down. Bought a flight ticket to Switzerland, booked a hotel close to his location and just finished him. He got incarcerated for a small amount of time (like 2 years) and went on to be celebrated and become a minister in one of the regions in his country. What a honorable and fair thing to do. This guy did exactly what I would like to do, but I cannot, because CTB is my priority and being in prison would make it impossible. Unlike the ATC, these doctors will never pay their price. They will only remember me as a crazy patient who kept sending all these complaints that they had to spend time answering to instead of going home earlier.

 

[Euthanza]

I was betrayed. Trusted people. Even a couple were long time friends. They stole the keys to my apt and new condo while I was in the hospital and threw out almost everything I owned. I now lost both living spaces and my belongings and job and I am homeless and starving everyday smelling like urine with rotting teeth and my skin bleeding. I need to die not bc I am suicidal but out of necessary and human dignity and torture. Please help.

Probably you should apply for Canada government social assistance, they also have MAID

 

[chloramine]

Probably you should apply for Canada government social assistance, they also have MAID

At this time it doesn't sound like they'd be eligible for MAID (unless there was anything I missed, which- completely possible. I'm just going off of information from one comment). It's currently only for physical conditions. Mental illness or circumstances don't meet the criteria established. It's supposed to be accessible to people whose only reason is mental illness in 2023, but I'm anticipating that having a lot of restrictions.

 

[Hope:-)]

I relate to a lot of this. I'm so angry on your behalf guys. I was given incorrect medical care for 16 yrs and it's only just starting to be remedied.
I now have severe situational depression and don't see a way out. I find it hard to look after myself now.

 

[Insomniac]

my parents betrayed me.

 

[sad jester]

One of the first moments in life I felt true despair and a longing for CTB was due to a betrayal. To be honest I don't think I've ever really gotten over it as I think it changed me completely, set on an even steeper path of sorrow.

Every now and then I do look back on it and get sad, but life has gotten so much more depressing for me that it rarely happens, now I just see my life as a whole as a total sham.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I really am physically suffering but no one will believe me. No one believes my circumstances bc there were no witnesses just the liars who did this to me. If I was believed I would qualify for MAID 100% but this has never happened to anyone. I'm in so much physical pain I can't be in anymore with failed attempts I need something not complicated and certain and quick. I can't find anywhere to jump from close by if someone could help with that maybe
I really do need to die asap it's not a luxury for me. I wish it was.

I believe you 100%, I'm sure others do here. We're often in the same boat.

 

[Hope:-)]

Exactly you are right.
I really am physically suffering but no one will believe me. No one believes my circumstances bc there were no witnesses just the liars who did this to me. If I was believed I would qualify for MAID 100% but this has never happened to anyone. I'm in so much physical pain I can't be in anymore with failed attempts I need something not complicated and certain and quick. I can't find anywhere to jump from close by if someone could help with that maybe
I really do need to die asap it's not a luxury for me. I wish it was.

I believe you.x

 

[Suicidebydeath]

You are so lovely

Thanks, you too. I hope you can find some help or resources in the meantime, nobody deserves to die and suffer at the same time. You're a human being to me and others in any condition and deserve to be helped to find peace.

 

[Hope:-)]

Massively feeling this right now.

 

[broken_songbird]

I was betrayed. Trusted people. Even a couple were long time friends. They stole the keys to my apt and new condo while I was in the hospital and threw out almost everything I owned. I now lost both living spaces and my belongings and job and I am homeless and starving everyday smelling like urine with rotting teeth and my skin bleeding. I need to die not bc I am suicidal but out of necessary and human dignity and torture. Please help.

Right there with you. Watching everything literally rot away. Trying to figure out what horrible thing I could've possibly done to be stripped bare and left alone. Rotting teeth, constant sores from being outside, exposed to the elements. Folks assume I'm on meth. Nothing here looks like an honor student who worked with a prestigious university. Society needs that to be my fault. I'm not lacking self-esteem. I'm lacking my right to human dignity.

 

[Hangnail]

I feel like my mom betrayed me, or at least neglected me when I needed her guidance. I feel like she cares more about my sister and might be a bit happy even that I'm uglier than my sister now. She would take the time to have talks with my sister but when it came to me, she always acted frustrated or annoyed, like I was a waste of time, even if I sought her out.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Partially. I have several reasons, but betrayal is definitely a big one.

 

[broken_songbird]

I feel like my mom betrayed me, or at least neglected me when I needed her guidance. I feel like she cares more about my sister and might be a bit happy even that I'm uglier than my sister now. She would take the time to have talks with my sister but when it came to me, she always acted frustrated or annoyed, like I was a waste of time, even if I sought her out.

Parents can be such assholes. I don't refer to her as my mother any more, but that woman always favored the guy I used to call my brother simply for being male. As soon as my life was gaining success, they took the opportunity to pull some truly Shakespearean BS and I've never recovered. I'm so sorry that your tribe is neglecting and rejecting you. Human parents are supposed to be above rejecting their offspring. When someone has a baby it's a commitment beyond providing a roof. You deserve a nurturing mother. It should've been your birthright.

 

[Hope:-)]

The worst part is they will never know what they've done.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Yes, a lifetime of betrayals. Each one is like dropping change in a cup. My cup is full now. Time to cash in.