Discussion Anyone attempted suicide without anyone noticing?

[turned_to_one]

I attempted several times as a child and never got caught. Even for 2 attempts where I got very close to succeeding (suspension hanging - bike rack broke before death, overdose in tub - woke up after somehow hurling my guts out over the side at 6 in the morning) I managed to not get caught and no one to this day has ever found out about it. I'm wondering if anyone else has had as similar experience when they were younger, or otherwise had other people living in the house with them?

I have very mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I managed to succeed in not getting caught. On the other, I hate myself for the small part of me that wishes anyone could have noticed. I went to great lengths to make sure no one would notice, and I know that whoever noticed would have made my life worse for it, but still. What stupid horrible times.

 

[puppyboy]

i've overdosed without telling anyone!! i was maybe 11 or something, i took 2000mg of ibuprofen and was puking for an entire day, but i just told them i was sick with a stomach bug ⊂(´• ω •`⊂)

 

[ravendrops]

No one in my life knows about my attempts. I've had 3-4 serious ones in the last couple of years. It's profoundly sad.

 

[angelhopes]

me ^_^ I tried in the last two weeks and no one noticed. Its probably because im too pussy to go all out so I didn't leave any bruising or markings in my neck but I just felt like trying since everything was falling apart.

 

[Lamentice]

I assume most attempts go unnoticed/unknown.

 

[Bishop]

I assume most attempts go unnoticed/unknown.

I would think that's how it usually is? Not like a livestream of it happening. Though I guess some people are narcissists and want people to see?

 

[Yakui]

i have at least two attempts that went unnoticed, one was just bc i was out of the house at the time and never told my family abt it and the other time i hung myself partial suspension but chickened out halfway through

 

[Lamentice]

I would think that's how it usually is? Not like a livestream of it happening. Though I guess some people are narcissists and want people to see?

Although I agree that most attempts are usually unnoticed, I do not believe wanting witness is narcissistic.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

I would think that's how it usually is? Not like a livestream of it happening. Though I guess some people are narcissists and want people to see?

it's more exhibitionist than narcissist i think. and the people who want to watch it are voyeurs.

 

[turned_to_one]

I would think that's how it usually is? Not like a livestream of it happening. Though I guess some people are narcissists and want people to see?

true, but good motivation to just ctb already. really no need for another narcissist in the world

 

[Redhand5]

I attempted several times as a child and never got caught. Even for 2 attempts where I got very close to succeeding (suspension hanging - bike rack broke before death, overdose in tub - woke up after somehow hurling my guts out over the side at 6 in the morning) I managed to not get caught and no one to this day has ever found out about it. I'm wondering if anyone else has had as similar experience when they were younger, or otherwise had other people living in the house with them?

I have very mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I managed to succeed in not getting caught. On the other, I hate myself for the small part of me that wishes anyone could have noticed. I went to great lengths to make sure no one would notice, and I know that whoever noticed would have made my life worse for it, but still. What stupid horrible times.

My mom came in after I ate a bunch of hemlock. I was laying on the couch because I couldn't really move, but could talk just fine haha. We chatted briefly and she had no idea. I told her I was tired and was about to take a nap.

 

[Scythe]

Done plant poisoning twice, both unnoticed because my body took care of it fast enough.

 

[hello707]

my stupid ass tried to OD on paracetemol when I used to live in dorms. I remember my roommate coming in and out of the room multiple times and not even glancing my way cause i was lying down in bed. Had the craziest nausea and diarrhea 0/10 experience don't reccomend.

 

[AmanSilvers]

I agree with those above that most attempts go unnoticed. Nobody has ever noticed mine. I've always been embarrassed about my failures, so it felt like a blessing to not be noticed.

Looking back now, on those attempts that I started 10 years ago, they were clearly never goimg to work, like OTC medicine, and cutting my wrists in the bath. I wish I'd known better for my first attempt because now I'd pick something that can't be a half measure unless I fuck up royally, but then now I am a total wimp since I've gotten familiar with the si.

I don't think wanting to be noticed for it is necessarily narcissistic or exhibitionist. Perhaps it is out of a desire to be saved or just comforted in the last moments. It certainly depends on the individual.

 

[WereHere...]

I attempted several times as a child and never got caught. Even for 2 attempts where I got very close to succeeding (suspension hanging - bike rack broke before death, overdose in tub - woke up after somehow hurling my guts out over the side at 6 in the morning) I managed to not get caught and no one to this day has ever found out about it. I'm wondering if anyone else has had as similar experience when they were younger, or otherwise had other people living in the house with them?

I have very mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I managed to succeed in not getting caught. On the other, I hate myself for the small part of me that wishes anyone could have noticed. I went to great lengths to make sure no one would notice, and I know that whoever noticed would have made my life worse for it, but still. What stupid horrible times.

I really understand how you feel when you said you kinda wish somone would notice. I understand that alot, its like you wanna have somebody see how much your really hurting and come comfort you and not invalidate your pain. Like you actually want somone to help you. Anyways hopefully things go well for you and you dont try again or somone else notices your struggles and comes to comfort you

 

[hmnow]

I assume most attempts go unnoticed/unknown.

Both my attempts as a teenager and one more recently failed and no one was around to witness it and since they failed there was no body to find