Anybody else *physically* hurting from being alive?

[justagreenleaf]

I don't know how else to describe it, but I get this "physical pain" that accompanies suicidal ideation. It makes it literally agonizing to stay alive, and I feel the urge to do something impulsive, despite my wishes to plan for something that could grant me a "peaceful" passing after so much discomfort in life.

 

[αmber]

I do. This physical pain due to being alive got worse on me recently. I have lots of headaches, I'm constantly feeling myself numb and tired. My ability to reason is poor and I feel a constant urge to scream out loud.

 

[~Q~]

Yes. Along with various medical issues i constantly feel sick. Waiting for it to be over. Just waiting for the bus.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes. It does hurt me being alive. I never feel well. It can be torture being trapped in this human body as there is no limit as to how much it can hurt us. Living certainly is very painful and it seems as though there is no escape from pain in this life. My pain will only end when I die, I never want to feel or experience anything ever again. To exist is to suffer and I am tired of suffering.

 

[ornitier199]

Yes, I have aches from time to time. Worsen when I fail to ctb. My left finger also has been twitching on its own lately.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

All forms of hurt can only occur while being alive. Being dead leads to the absence of all types of experiences, including pain.

 

[thankyouforthis]

I don't know how else to describe it, but I get this "physical pain" that accompanies suicidal ideation. It makes it literally agonizing to stay alive, and I feel the urge to do something impulsive, despite my wishes to plan for something that could grant me a "peaceful" passing after so much discomfort in life.

My stomach constantly hurts. I don't know if this is why or not, but it's as good a guess as any. I haven't been diagnosed with anything but it varies from sharp, pulling pain in my belly button to just general nausea/discomfort. Sometimes I vomit, even on an empty stomach (this clear, frothy stuff). It gets worse after I eat, which is one reason I try to eat as little as possible. I'm told it could be "stress." Maybe I'm just allergic to life. I have a living intolerance :-)

 

[ConstantPain]

Yup, every day. I've always thought how wonderful it would be if I could wake up once and actually feel good. If I didn't have pain killers and sleeping pills, I would have already ended the pain for good. I try to think how I'm better off than others, like homeless or quadriplegic, and it sometimes gives me just enough inspiration to get out of bed.