Anybody else dissociating their lives away?

[Enigmatic Sailor]

No matter if I work, relax at home, or focus on my breathe it seems time flies by me like a racecar. I'll turn around every now and then and there's a new store built near me. If happiness were to hit me one day, it wouldn't matter because of how quickly it passes. This is crazy and it's getting worse the older I get.

 

[come to dust]

Yes. It only seems to get worse. I just wish death would come quick too

 

[CTBgenuine]

No matter if I work, relax at home, or focus on my breathe it seems time flies by me like a racecar. I'll turn around every now and then and there's a new store built near me. If happiness were to hit me one day, it wouldn't matter because of how quickly it passes. This is crazy and it's getting worse the older I get.

Yes! Since birth

 

[Soulless Angel]

No matter if I work, relax at home, or focus on my breathe it seems time flies by me like a racecar. I'll turn around every now and then and there's a new store built near me. If happiness were to hit me one day, it wouldn't matter because of how quickly it passes. This is crazy and it's getting worse the older I get.

I dissociate constantly, but am not allowed! I find it helps as it whiles away unknown hours

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I get severely scared manytimes when I realise that years have passed by, with me being in absolute dissociation. My long lasting history of traumas and abuses just make this worse. It's hard to even accept the reality now.

 

[allesistgut]

i dissociate a lot, my perception of time is getting worse and worse i think and time keeps going by and i wish it wouldn't. all of a sudden five months have passed and i don't understand how. it'd be nice if i could just be frozen in certain moments in time.

 

[Foresight]

Yes, it's my biggest issue. My brain throws a tantrum when I try to work on it too. I know it's just severe PTSD. My memory is jacked up and so is my sense of self. I'm just surviving at the moment, not living. It scares me.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

I'm almost 60 and I have definitely dissociated most of my life. I suppose it is even possible that if I could have stayed present more then I might have enjoyed more of life and not be in the state I'm in now. However, childhood trauma required the dissociation in order to survive and it just became a common part of my life.

 

[Atlantian]

Video games, television, drugs. I have buried my mind in them for countless years. Disassociating sucks but now I find reality to be a dissapointing horror story

 

[Off The Air]

I understand and relate. It is unnerving

 

[Marine]

I'm listening to that right now :



And she seems to think that learning to be present in the moment is one of the keys to healing trauma. I know I can do it to some extent, sometimes all I have to comfort myself is focus on my surroundings and it's kind of soothing if I can sustain it for a while.

It works especially well with nature but not necessarily. Martial arts, energy based practices but also walking and stuff like music, binaural beats, art, anything you can focus on tends to help. Focusing on people too.

I'm personally going to follow that lead for now anyway. It would explain why everything I've tried so far failed because I've never truly inhabited my body and I'd like to succeed if I can.

 

[Tomoko]

Yes, and it comes in waves. Sometimes I live in the moment for months, other times I dissociate even longer.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Every day, baby.