Another night

[ojinzo]

Another night I go to sleep praying not to wake but I will
To another day where I'll spend the entirety of it searching for ways to leave this world.
Another night I go to sleep without the relief of a secure exit plan or exit tools
Just to wake to another day of dealing with these demons who occupy a planet I once learned to love.
Another night I'll lay in bed yearning to not wake up in this body
Yet, I know I will...
Another night of thinking about failed dreams and a life ruined.
Another night of endless sorrow and turmoil.
Another night

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I wish that I was gone as well. I do envy those who have a peaceful way to exit, they are lucky, they do not have to suffer anymore. Life just seems to be unescapable problems and misery and I am always horrified to wake up and realise that I am still here.

 

[Ash’Girl]

I am sorry for the struggle that led you here and to this point. I identify with everything you have said.

 

[Euthanza]

I feel the same, my life is flat and stagnant, if not worse to say the least

 

[Nirrend]

Another night I go to sleep praying not to wake but I will
To another day where I'll spend the entirety of it searching for ways to leave this world.
Another night I go to sleep without the relief of a secure exit plan or exit tools
Just to wake to another day of dealing with these demons who occupy a planet I once learned to love.
Another night I'll lay in bed yearning to not wake up in this body
Yet, I know I will...
Another night of thinking about failed dreams and a life ruined.
Another night of endless sorrow and turmoil.
Another night

Stay strong friend, You're not alone <3

 

[Aeathelina]

Another night I go to sleep praying not to wake but I will
To another day where I'll spend the entirety of it searching for ways to leave this world.
Another night I go to sleep without the relief of a secure exit plan or exit tools
Just to wake to another day of dealing with these demons who occupy a planet I once learned to love.
Another night I'll lay in bed yearning to not wake up in this body
Yet, I know I will...
Another night of thinking about failed dreams and a life ruined.
Another night of endless sorrow and turmoil.
Another night

I have felt this way since I was ten years old. Always beckoning for Death's embrace but he seems to keep ignoring me