Another gut flare up. Deadline is getting shorter.

[Motoko]

Fuck I was so close to getting my shit together. New job in a month, I wanted to move out and rent an apartment.
I was feeling good for a couple of last months. I even started reading books. I had so many things planned.
Everything seemed to be ok.
Then another fucking gut flare up came up and I'm fucking sick of this shit. It's such a Tilting at windmills then I just don't have the power anymore.
I've spent so much money on stupid doctors, no one helped. I'm not going to any doctor anymore, fuck them.
Now if my health doesn't return to normal I think I will not take a new job and just neet for a while, eat whatever I want, bleed out of my ass everyday until I have no more money to live and just ctb. Or just ctb sooner because why the hell not, maybe on new years eve.
Fucking normies eating bread and sweets, chugging down cola. I see them everyday and guess what. They don't feel bad after it, they still have energy.
They are not in pain because they had potatoes or whatever. They don't have to think 24/7 which veggie/meat/fruit/whatever will do them harm or not. I'm so fucking jealous. I haven't touched any processed food in so long and still this shit happens. Pain, fatigue, blood, etc.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering, it can be painful when we are doing better and then that feeling is taken away. Health problems really can be awful, those who have haven't experienced it will never be able to understand what it is like. I wish you well.

 

[CFLoser]

I feel the same envy of people who can eat anything and not have to worry about waking up in pain or the embarrassment of having to explain to someone you love that the main reason you want to kill yourself is because your poop. lol

Only bright side is that if you find food that you are tolerant towards then you can just do that for the rest of the life but it takes time and its not really fun. And every time you go out of your comfort zone you get shit on.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Fuck I was so close to getting my shit together. New job in a month, I wanted to move out and rent an apartment.
I was feeling good for a couple of last months. I even started reading books. I had so many things planned.
Everything seemed to be ok.
Then another fucking gut flare up came up and I'm fucking sick of this shit. It's such a Tilting at windmills then I just don't have the power anymore.
I've spent so much money on stupid doctors, no one helped. I'm not going to any doctor anymore, fuck them.
Now if my health doesn't return to normal I think I will not take a new job and just neet for a while, eat whatever I want, bleed out of my ass everyday until I have no more money to live and just ctb. Or just ctb sooner because why the hell not, maybe on new years eve.
Fucking normies eating bread and sweets, chugging down cola. I see them everyday and guess what. They don't feel bad after it, they still have energy.
They are not in pain because they had potatoes or whatever. They don't have to think 24/7 which veggie/meat/fruit/whatever will do them harm or not. I'm so fucking jealous. I haven't touched any processed food in so long and still this shit happens. Pain, fatigue, blood, etc.

Hi

I'm going to pm u the bulletproof gut protocol

I've sent to a few people here on SS and it's cured them.. I've given this to SEVERAL people outside ss and it's literally miraculous in resolving any and all gut issues.. trust me I've been thru it all with my health . This saved my life.

 

[Arvinneedstodie]

As someone who has celiac disease, I feel you.

It's so exhausting and punishing living like this, and to know you have to try extra extra hard just to be at a bare minimal functional state. Add the mental health struggles on top of it all, and it's just overwhelming. I really wish I could just be healthy and be comfortable in my own skin, like everyone else on the streets eating and drinking whatever and still be more healthy than I'll ever be.