I've been failed since I was a child. Social Workers worked with my family due to my sister being terminally ill. They worked to give us what we needed to look after her and they also checked in with my Mum and Step Dad and offered them help. I was never approached despite living in hell, the abuse, the dealing with a sibling dying. No one ever tried to help me, I slipped through the cracks. Slipping through the cracks has followed me in to adulthood and I've been failed by many professionals over the years, especially recently and these mistakes and incompatance has been noted by many. The most I get is 'we're sorry this shouldn't have happened' but yet they continue to fail me and not do the basics that their job entails. Does anyone ever feel like killing their selves will be the ultimate 'fuck you' to those that have failed them? When I do die I actually hope the professionals involved with me, do beat themselves up because it's their incompatance and lack of help that leaves me feeling that I can't go on. Nothing ever gets better and I'm sick of being let down. The system is shocking and half the people that work in it should have never of been working in mental health. My death will be the final fuck you to them all and I don't care if they regret or beat themselves up because its not like they've not had enough chances to help me. I hope my death tortures them... It probably won't though as they don't give a fuck about anyone. I've never wanted anyone to suffer from my death, I'm not that type of person but I've absolutely had it with mental health teams etc that they should pay the price.
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