Venting Am I ready to ruin my mother's life?

[whybother2002]

I know that my mother will be traumatized. She's a very religious person and had a rough life of her own. From the time she sees my dead body turned blue I think she will never recover.

I'm so sad it has come to this. Fuck this life.

 

[sanrioslayer]

Im so sorry you have to deal with this

 

[unluckysadness]

I must deal with this too. It's the only reason I'm still fighting. She can still live for 20 years but I can't. So fucking unfair.

 

[Ligottian]

Both of my parents are dead. No spouse or kids. I think only my elderly aunt would mourn if I CTB.

 

[ringo99]

I'm moved to tears anytime I think about my parents especially my mother finding my body. But I've reached a stage where being alive is a liability to everyone around me. I keep telling myself that although I'm causing her immense pain now, in the long run it'd actually be better if I was gone. I know I'm probably grasping at straws but I genuinely don't see any other way out.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

What has made it come to this? Do you want to talk?

 

[whybother2002]

What has made it come to this? Do you want to talk?

Unfortunately I have to keep it to myself... Thank you very much anyway!

 

[Off_Switch]

My parents had a rough life, too. It makes me wonder why they still decided to have children despite this.

 

[Ligottian]

I think just being alive is usually rough.