Am I not capable of being happy?

[Sslsh]

I detest everything about this world. It's like we are being programmed to run after superficial things that either make us sad because we can't have em, or make us sad because they do not live up to our expectations when we get em. But then I look at people being happy with their lives, and that makes me think maybe it's me who's messed up. Maybe I am not mentally capable of being happy. I wish I was successful in my last partial attempt a year ago. Now I have lost the will to even attempt to ctb.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

most people are not really happy. the fact that you feel this way if because you are actually in position to discover what could be like true happiness maybe
or maybe not... but in order to be really happy one has to suffer and be arround here for a while, it is the dark night of the soul

 

[WornOutLife]

I think the main problem here is that we're not programmed to live and be happy with ordinary stuff like normal people are.

You know, I get happy when I earn money and spend it on whatever I want but at the end of the day, I'm still suicidal.

A wife, children, friends, etc are not enough for me. I don't even want any of those lol.
I just don't know what I want but well, I can still experience some moments of short happiness, especially today that I'll be drinking booze! Escaping from this reality, even if it's only for a few hours, really helps.

 

[BlankUser]

I can't be happy because of my messed up brain chemistry, horrible past events, mistakes I made... I'm such a failure and a piece of shit. I've been hurt and I've hurt. I wish I never existed.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me the concept of happiness doesn't really exist. I don't see it as rational and I forget that there are still people who actually experience it. My brain simply hasn't been wired for this life, and I see this existence as both pointless as we just die anyway and full of unnecessary suffering.

 

[Debbie Northampton U]

I'm not sure if we are wired differently or it's our circumstances that make us like this. If we all won a million pounds, would we be able to be happy for longer than a while? In my mind, if I had certain things such as my own property somewhere nice and no money worries, then I'd feel so much better. But at the end of the day, I cannot escape myself so I think it's the wiring. Childhood abandonment etc that made it worse.

 

[Secrets1]

I'm not sure if we are wired differently or it's our circumstances that make us like this. If we all won a million pounds, would we be able to be happy for longer than a while? In my mind, if I had certain things such as my own property somewhere nice and no money worries, then I'd feel so much better. But at the end of the day, I cannot escape myself so I think it's the wiring. Childhood abandonment etc that made it worse.

Touché. Bad circumstances trigger bad memories even if unrelated and are a battle to fight. I recognize this pattern yet continue to self sabotage.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

We are not normies, so we can't be happy just with normal things.

For example when a new day is starting some normie would probably say "What a lovely day. Let's enjoy it!" And then here I am (and maybe also you) "Another day in agony. Kill me now, please!"

Anyway I think we are much more intelligent than normies, because we know how this world sucks and there is nothing really meaningful. Normies are glad just for being alive, having a family and then making their own family. And I keep asking "What's the point?"

 

[Zzzzz]

Some people are not able to achieve happiness. Evolution guarantees this cruelty. Life is a tragedy filled with suffering.