always uncomfortable

[mimiopo22]

I feel very unfit in this world because of my mental illness. I can't explain how out of place I am, out of place in this universe. I just want it to end now. yesterday and at Christmas people were celebrating happily and I found myself thinking like "during these holidays for the first time I didn't even feel sad, I didn't feel anything" the more I go beyond the I don't feel anything. I had a long sleep last night where I had no dreams that reminded me that I existed and it would be nice to die in my sleep.

 

[IWantToSleep]

I haven't celebrated Christmas for years now, they come and go and next thing you know it's Christmas again and it's gone again. I feel like I'll wake up when I'm sixty living the exact same cycle.

 

[mimiopo22]

I haven't celebrated Christmas for years now, they come and go and next thing you know it's Christmas again and it's gone again. I feel like I'll wake up when I'm sixty living the exact same cycle.

the same

 

[Ender]

I feel very unfit in this world because of my mental illness. I can't explain how out of place I am, out of place in this universe. I just want it to end now.

Totally with you on that. I have four diagnosed mental illnesses, and who knows how much I could have, and all of that just creates an empty wormhole that has ripped through our planet Earth.