always feel like the last option everywhere

[TheHatedOne]

no matter what, I'm always the last everywhere, always the last in people's lives, I don't want to feel too much anymore. It's the second day in a row where I actually cry. I don't want it anymore. I feel like self harming.

edit: i'm chosen out of pity, i know it, i fucking know i
about the second night where i fall asleep crying. nice. i want to die in my sleep.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I feel you. Sometimes I think the only valuable thing in me is my intellect and naive empathy. That people just be around me and not with me. I become visible when I am useful for them for example at university and it is just very painfull to me when they dissapear from my life. I'm some kind the last resort in people lives. I want to give a big hug to you. Trust me you are not alone in this feeling. You are first person that I had known at this place so you are at first place for me and I always looking for your comments to see how you feel. I'm here for you, you matter for me.

 

[Pluto]

I'm always last, too. But wait, we can't all be last?

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

I'm not even an option

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine it must be painful to feel like this. Personally I choose to stay away from people as then nobody can upset me or let me down. No one should have to feel like this. We all deserve people that are there for us, but unfortunately people can be cruel. I also want to die in my sleep. It sounds so peaceful and it will mean I will be free of suffering. I wish you the best.