Always arguing with parents

[WeirdTheaterKid02]

Every day i wake up Miserable. My parents are aweful (i still live with them). When i was younger they would frequently invade my privacy and on a few occasions read my diary. Every Day they tell me how lazy and rude and irresponsible i am. We frequently argue and im never able to win an argument. They twist everything i say and just assume they know what im thinking all the time. Normally i just end up breaking down ano crying. Which feels embarrassing because they then get to be the Hero and make me feel "better". I just want to never have to interact with them again.

Im not in a good financial space to do that and i have type one diabetes in America so im pretty much screwed anyway They constantly disregard my Cries for them to treat me with respect. They wont acknowledge i have ADHD or Depression (both diagnosed) because they "dont want other people knowing they have mentally ill kids". Theyre very homophobic and are constantoy invalidating my bisexuality.

They treat me like im a child still and im so sick of it. They think that because i still live under their house i have to treat them as the authority. On my current path id still have to live and deal with them for another 2 years. And I would really not want to live with a friend because it would feel like a burden. Overall i think im just too far gone.

My plan is to partial tonight. The only hesitation i have is my sister seeing me. I dont care about anyone else but her. She's been through so much but at this point i just really dont think i can handle my life anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so awful what you are going through, some people really are so cruel and it is horrible the way that some people treat others. I'm sorry that you are in this situation, it is such an unfair life. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

Every day i wake up Miserable. My parents are aweful (i still live with them). When i was younger they would frequently invade my privacy and on a few occasions read my diary. Every Day they tell me how lazy and rude and irresponsible i am. We frequently argue and im never able to win an argument. They twist everything i say and just assume they know what im thinking all the time. Normally i just end up breaking down ano crying. Which feels embarrassing because they then get to be the Hero and make me feel "better". I just want to never have to interact with them again.

Im not in a good financial space to do that and i have type one diabetes in America so im pretty much screwed anyway They constantly disregard my Cries for them to treat me with respect. They wont acknowledge i have ADHD or Depression (both diagnosed) because they "dont want other people knowing they have mentally ill kids". Theyre very homophobic and are constantoy invalidating my bisexuality.

They treat me like im a child still and im so sick of it. They think that because i still live under their house i have to treat them as the authority. On my current path id still have to live and deal with them for another 2 years. And I would really not want to live with a friend because it would feel like a burden. Overall i think im just too far gone.

My plan is to partial tonight. The only hesitation i have is my sister seeing me. I dont care about anyone else but her. She's been through so much but at this point i just really dont think i can handle my life anymore.

is there no way you can just avoid them for 2 years and save your ass off? get an evening cleaning job so you're saving more and you're out all the time

 

[WeirdTheaterKid02]

is there no way you can just avoid them for 2 years and save your ass off? get an evening cleaning job so you're saving more and you're out all the time

if I avoid them they yell at me for "not being part of the family" if i tell them im exauhsted they says im "lazy" and that i just do nothing with myself and thats why im tired. I did a lot of thinking about it today. Im gonna get another job. Set up a bank account they cant get into and just start saving my ass off. I really thought today was gonna be it for me but I almost got into a car crash and it was honestly the scariest thing of my life and i realized thats not what i wanted for myself yet. I appreciate the concerns - im going to do my best. I also really would hate to do that to my sister. It's one of the biggest reasons i wont CTB yet.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

if I avoid them they yell at me for "not being part of the family" if i tell them im exauhsted they says im "lazy" and that i just do nothing with myself and thats why im tired. I did a lot of thinking about it today. Im gonna get another job. Set up a bank account they cant get into and just start saving my ass off. I really thought today was gonna be it for me but I almost got into a car crash and it was honestly the scariest thing of my life and i realized thats not what i wanted for myself yet. I appreciate the concerns - im going to do my best. I also really would hate to do that to my sister. It's one of the biggest reasons i wont CTB yet.

that's great to hear - that was my plan before the chronic pain started - work lots, save my ass off, buy my own cheap place in a shit area - who cares? as long as it's MINE - then really think hard about what i WANT to do, without other people around me affecting how I think and feel about myself