All is lost

[deathenvoy]

2 years after my depression started and it is getting worse and worse. No medication helps nor therapy. I used to have great career - now I am unemployed and cannot do my job. I destroyed only love I had. I am not able to function alone as I have severe fear of loneliness and I am not able to function among people as I have severe social phobia. The only thing that keeps me alive is fear that I will destroy my mother's life if I would CTB.
My life is over.

 

[Macc Lad]

2 years after my depression started and it is getting worse and worse. No medication helps nor therapy. I used to have great career - now I am unemployed and cannot do my job. I destroyed only love I had. I am not able to function alone as I have severe fear of loneliness and I am not able to function among people as I have severe social phobia. The only thing that keeps me alive is fear that I will destroy my mother's life if I would CTB.
My life is over.

so sorry to hear that....best wishes to you....hope somehow from somewhere you can find some strength.

 

[lululoo]

2 years is short as far as depression. have you tried the less common approaches? Ketamine, magic mushrooms?

Not trying to invalidate your suffering. Just saying I have more hope for you than someone like myself, since your depression is fairly recent.