All i want for christmas is to not be alive

[Iwashereonce]

And in pain, ive been having unsolved chronic pain for some time now and all i want is not to feel anything anymore, the only place that I can say without guilt is here that i want to end my sad life, some people say "just try to br positive, look at the beautiful small things to be grateful for" when none of it matter when youre in physical and mental pain, people dont understand what it feels like to be in my body, its not all in my head, i cant meditate and pretend everything is fine i just cant do this for the next few years.

 

[justanotherstar]

I'm sorry to hear your suffering. Sending hugs

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the same, I'm in pain everyday. At least death is inevitable, it's the one good thing about living. I see it as an abyss of emptiness where we can all be at peace.

 

[Steamm]

Me too brother me too

 

[greebo6]

My CTB is coming in January but I wouldn't say no to slipping away in my sleep tonight.

 

[FluffyDove]

All I want is to know my child will be ok, so I can leave

 

[itsallover]

I really think tomorrow is my day to go too. I don't want to go to any holiday parties as I have been in a chronic and very uncomfortable state of pain for the last four always wishing I would get my health back through three failed surgeries and am going to take an obscene amount of pills prescribed to me as tomorrow is pickup and goodbye day for me.

 

[Pookie]

Death would be the best Christmas present for me too.