Venting again

[aerithmaze]

this keeps happening to me. i try my hardest to move on and get back on my feet but the people i love always leave. this was the finale straw, i didnt think it would happen either. i was so open, so ready to be okay. i hate change, i hate being alone and they knew that. they promised to stay.

im trapped in a loop. i cant see myself getting out of it. its been like this since i was small. no matter how much im back here. i dont think god wants me in this world if he does exist. ive been thinking abt ctb for months. i was scared but now, it feels like a peaceful option. no more of this. I hope to get it done soon

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find peace.