advice on method

[no.surprises]

i plan to ctb through fsh. i absolutely do not want my family finding my body, so i figured i would have to go somewhere remote to do it, the only place i can think of is this forest near my house. i wish to do it on the weekend so they dont have to deal wirh going to work immediately after.
the issues:

1. i want to leave my note on my bed and sneak out. this requires my family either all being gone or asleep. they typically stay up pretty late, especially on weekends, and its kinda hard to sneak out without making noise.

2. i would have to walk to the forest and hope that i can find a good tree while in the dark. im fairly light so finding a strong enough branch shouldnt be that difficult. while im not really scared of the dark, i know i would chicken out if im just surrounded by the dark forest.

3. the forest is also a hiking trail so im worried that someone might be out even in the dead of night.

theres a lot of factors that could go wrong. i cant really do other methods because i dont want to make a mess that others have to clean and i want my death to be guaranteed. thoughts?

 

[gonegirl405]

Hi I noticed that you are a new member like me. I dont know u and you don't know me and I am very much suicidal like you but I still value every single life and i think every life is precious especially if you are young (like in ur teens or 20s). Please reconsider this, give life a shot before you do anything. Its gonna be a bit challenging for sure but please i beg you to try if it never works out you can always kill yourself later. I know the urge is strong I get it honestly but if there is anything else that you can do maybe workout or just something that will distract u from the thought of ending it please. If you ever need someone to talk to I am free idk how messaging works on here but I can figure it out.

 

[wine is fine but]

1. i want to leave my note on my bed and sneak out

there are no perfect ways, but they might rather find your body than just a note

there will be no possibility for closure until you have been found

the act will be devastating enough for them, without not really knowing if you are alive or dead

think carefully - if you must do it, then you must do it, but it will devastate everyone you love, and having no closure will probably make it somehow even worse



and in another thread you talk about a wonderful girlfriend who love too much - do not let her know of your plans, both for your own sake, and for hers. you seem young and like many young people, you seem to think right now is for ever. you may have already tried this, but try to put all of your energies into building a future with your girlfriend or force yourself to find something to keep yourself interested. if your girlfriend loves you, either romantically or even just as a companion, your act will break her. sadly families are always collateral damage with suicides, but this would scar her forever. it will probably change everything about her future relationships and not in a good way. please think carefully. you will probably not have a care in the world afterwards, but the people you love will have