About to start my (dream) job and I dont care. I think its time.

[merpmerp]

Im feeling a lot of guilt because the company has invested a lot of time/money in my training but im starting to realize that ill never feel better. Im reaching 26 and have no close friends and dont feel close to either of my parents. Im a nervous wreck in social situations and I just dont see much happening that will make any of it worth it. Im sick of feeling worthless. I can't do anything write whether it be: cook, drive, socialise, being positive. My dad (who usually leaves me alone for the most part) asked me if i was happy. i didnt think my depression was obvious at all. I dont even think he likes me half the time but anyways i guess im venting. thanks for reading this far

 

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Hey, I'd give the job a try because maybe it'll give you a feeling of purpose? Then if it doesn't I guess?

Also I'm getting the vibe that you havnt done therapy or meds yet but I could be wrong. If you havnt try them as they can truly change your life around. I saw it happen with my brothers depression and anxiety.

Personally didn't work for me but everyone is different.

eish you the best

 

[merpmerp]

Hey, I'd give the job a try because maybe it'll give you a feeling of purpose? Then if it doesn't I guess?

Also I'm getting the vibe that you havnt done therapy or meds yet but I could be wrong. If you havnt try them as they can truly change your life around. I saw it happen with my brothers depression and anxiety.

Personally didn't work for me but everyone is different.

eish you the best

I hope so. Thanks for your words

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I just dont see much happening that will make any of it worth it. Im sick of feeling worthless. I can't do anything write whether it be: cook, drive, socialise, being positive.

Relatable.