A year in prison- is it worth the risk?

[johntee23]

As a worst case scenario, I will get a year in prison for importing N. Is it worth the risk?I have the experience and the know how to do hypoxic death but fuck it, it's impossible to do if you share a house with a wife who watches you like a hawk. There's a real risk if I did order N she'd spot that too. My alternatives are hanging and a very large river nearby. The river is, I'd guess, the favoured local method for CTB. Maybe 5 or 10 people a year go that way. I can't swim so it's pretty guaranteed to succeed. It's a matter of finding a good, deep, fast flowing section of river and somehow overcoming the SI. Hanging is horrific and requires time. I have a 6 foot dog lead and a practiced slip knot.
The thing is, I need to go today. I really need to. My health and quality of life are gone forever.

 

[wait.what]

I'm sorry your life has come to this. Whatever you choose to do, I hope you find relief from your pain.

 

[Soulless Angel]

What's brought you to this point, sorry but no one in their right mind, right now is going to suggest a way for you to CTB? Whats up, whats so bad you need to go now, though you speak of ordering N? that can take weeks?
What's the rush, talk to us?

 

[WornOutLife]

The only thing I'm really scared of in this world is PRISON.
I wouldn't take the risk. I would find another method, even if it's more painful.

 

[johntee23]

What's brought you to this point, sorry but no one in their right mind, right now is going to suggest a way for you to CTB? Whats up, whats so bad you need to go now, though you speak of ordering N? that can take weeks?
What's the rush, talk to us?

My health was lost completely in a freak adverse reaction to prescription drug. life without physical health is life without mental health and is unbearable.

 

[saltshaker]

A year? If you don't have priors a spent conviction is more likely, just tell the judge you want to die and they'll likely take pity on you and order you into a psyche ward instead.

Also importing N takes weeks/months.

What prescription drug has harmed you, If you don't mind me asking.

 

[Amumu]

As someone put it in another thread, it's more likely that you're sectioned than you go in prison.

 

[gus.nixon]

If your package did get seized by the authorities, just feign ignorance. Straight up tell them that you have no idea what it is or what they're talking about. There's really no way for them to prosecute unless they really put the time and energy into busting you, and trust me, they don't have the time, energy or money to go after everyone for everything. Simply tell them you know nothing about any of it and you'll be good. I've been buying hard drugs off of the dark web for years now and it's just something that everyone just understands. Packages get seized all the time and as long as you pretend to be ignorant, you'll be just fine.

 

[Meditation guide]

It depends on what country you are in. In usa yes you go to prison.

 

[greyhound]

Honestly I have only heard of one example where someone got prosecuted for importing N. It was a case where a woman in NZ had gotten for the 3rd time importing it (for others). Generally speaking when you have a drug mailed to yourself they can't prove you ordered it and so very difficult to prosecute. Just keep the package unopened for a while and you have plausible deniability.

 

[Amumu]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...in-possession-of-nembutal.60958/#post-1129818

A lot of people have experienced their N being seized, please ask them for more details.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I wouldn't risk prison and if you get sent to a psych ward they can keep you for as long as they want. If you're already not completely able bodied prison would be even more like hell on earth! Don't use your own name for the parcel

 

[RowdyH999]

As a worst case scenario, I will get a year in prison for importing N. Is it worth the risk?I have the experience and the know how to do hypoxic death but fuck it, it's impossible to do if you share a house with a wife who watches you like a hawk. There's a real risk if I did order N she'd spot that too. My alternatives are hanging and a very large river nearby. The river is, I'd guess, the favoured local method for CTB. Maybe 5 or 10 people a year go that way. I can't swim so it's pretty guaranteed to succeed. It's a matter of finding a good, deep, fast flowing section of river and somehow overcoming the SI. Hanging is horrific and requires time. I have a 6 foot dog lead and a practiced slip knot.
The thing is, I need to go today. I really need to. My health and quality of life are gone forever.

A year honestly isn't bad. I've done some time. Most places you get good time also. If it's your first offense they won't even give you jail time most likely. If you get a year (worst case) usually only do about 2/3 of it with good time. So 8 months. If none gets suspended. I'd take the risk personally. Just my two cents

 

[Crusader]

I will get a year in prison for importing N. Is it worth the risk?

No ! There are other reliable methods, that work as well and without getting into trouble with the police.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

No...
A criminal record has a tendency to mess with your life for ever.
I know right now you don't care, but bridge burning is only a good idea if survival is at stake, not closing options for the sake of it.

 

[Into The Void]

Sending the N to a P.O. box might be an option. And chances are if you have a clean record you'll get off with probation. Just hire a good lawyer and don't talk to the police.

 

[lofticries]

So the people on this website who ctb with n could have all went to prison. Damn are they lucky. Got a peaceful death and escaped even worse confinement.

 

[ClairyFairy]

A year honestly isn't bad. I've done some time. Most places you get good time also. If it's your first offense they won't even give you jail time most likely. If you get a year (worst case) usually only do about 2/3 of it with good time. So 8 months. If none gets suspended. I'd take the risk personally. Just my two cents

That sounds like someone from the uk talking. No where else is like us you eat all the porridge not 2/3 of the bowl. Only time in remand would count

 

[TwoTenEightyEight]

What's brought you to this point, sorry but no one in their right mind, right now is going to suggest a way for you to CTB? Whats up, whats so bad you need to go now, though you speak of ordering N? that can take weeks?
What's the rush, talk to us?

Why do so many on this forum want to talk people out of suicide? Have we been hijacked or is this by design?

 

[Soulless Angel]

Why do so many on this forum want to talk people out of suicide? Have we been hijacked or is this by design?

You obvs don't know the forum. It's about showing some kind heart to someone in a dark place. And at least if they do go ahead and complete they would know someone had a kind word. This forum isn't all about suicide. Also on a seperate point with the heat this place gets from the media, no one is going to sit and help someone complete without some kind of offering of support and advice first.

 

[Thinking]

I'm sorry you're in such a tough position right now. From what I've heard, going to prison would give you a shit ton of trauma and would be hell. However, if you do end up going, don't tell anyone you want to CBT because they will strip you naked and put you in an empty room on suicide watch (at least in America).

 

[TwoTenEightyEight]

You obvs don't know the forum. It's about showing some kind heart to someone in a dark place. And at least if they do go ahead and complete they would know someone had a kind word. This forum isn't all about suicide. Also on a seperate point with the heat this place gets from the media, no one is going to sit and help someone complete without some kind of offering of support and advice first.

Yeah, I'm new here. I suppose the forum is hijacked then, at least by outside influence. Not everyone wants patronizing "there-theres" like it's a TED talk on depression. This is just my own take on the issue though.

 

[Soulless Angel]

Yeah, I'm new here. I suppose the forum is hijacked then, at least by outside influence. Not everyone wants patronizing "there-theres" like it's a TED talk on depression. This is just my own take on the issue though.

Yes not everyone does but who are you to judge who does and who doesn't. I rather annoy with care then ignore and wonder.

 

[TwoTenEightyEight]

Yes not everyone does but who are you to judge who does and who doesn't.

I said: "Not everyone wants patronizing "there-theres" like it's a TED talk on depression". Not only was I not judging anyone, I also didn't make any sweeping generalizations on the "who does" and "who doesn'ts". I made no such distinction. Calm down, not everything is an attack. Apologies.

 

[fixitinpost]

I would not go that way OP. Not only because of the time served, but you'll end up with a criminal record and that's no fun.

Why do so many on this forum want to talk people out of suicide? Have we been hijacked or is this by design?

Wouldn't you want to try and gain understanding of what someone is going through to reach this point? Maybe you're going through something similar and can offer empathy to someone who might feel like they're out there fighting on their own. Isn't that the main purpose of a support group?

There's plenty of information on methods and such, and that's universal. A rope is a rope. We wouldn't need an entire forum to discuss bowline knots and bid people farewell. In fact, I would consider that a horrible place to be. As @Soulless Angel said, this forum is much more. Everyone can choose to respond as they wish. If they feel patronized or do not wish to talk, they can say so. Or they can just ignore it. Better that than we stop trying.