Story A reply to a reply of a confession

[Sarros]

Sorry if this kind of thing doesn't belong here, I enjoyed typing it in the moment but as with anything I write, do or say that has any kind of permanence, I always look back and cringe so I can't be bothered to work on it too much longer.

Basically the context for the message is that I reached to an old high school friend (I'm 24) with romantic intent, she lets me know she has a boyfriend, I tell her that it "messed me up", she asked what I meant and I confessed to her. The message is I'm replying to her reply of said confession. While I was typing this out I think my thoughts got lost along the way so I won't be sending it. Honestly, I'm not really sure what to say. Or even what I'm trying to say here or if I should even say anything in response. Looking back, it kind of just reads like I'm trying to one-up her suffering/self-degradation, how fucking stupid.

The message won't make much sense because I'm not posting what she said but the basic gist of it is that she feels like a loser, says she is selfish and a whole bunch of other toxic traits, says that I deserve better and finally, that despite feeling
like she's going to hold this man back and make him feel miserable, that she loves him with all of her heart and wants to spent the rest of life with him. She says she values our friendship and wants to keep being friends but after she said that, it just made me want her more.

 

[whywhywhy]

Probably the best you can really do is block her from all social media. Being friends just does not work in 99.999% of the cases.
Also dont be too hard on yourself I think most people here can relate to feeling like shit but most of it is overexageration in reality none of us is that bad but since we lack motivation to live and move on we dwell in our sadness.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Nothing can be done, except for dealing with the pain somehow.