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Avril

Avril

Unlovable.
Aug 8, 2020
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My first username was CTBus BTW, in case y'all confused. Please don't be scared of my new username, I love the occult and don't mean to offend religious people here.

Anyways, today was the most horrible day of my life. After 7 years, she left. Without saying anything. All glimmer of hope of having a great life together was extinguished. I'm going through with my ctb this year and I am now entering the preparation phase. I promise I won't be emotional like I was during my first ctb attempt. I'll calculate everything with the greatest care, I will be patient, I will make my bucket list, then I will die happy, even though my method is jumping.

CTB is near and the pain will end real soon.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
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I too love satan, but only specifically Femboy Satan
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BobMorane

BobMorane

wizard
Apr 20, 2021
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don't jump.... Take N or Sn but don't jump. its a horrible death...
 
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Student
Aug 3, 2021
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Sorry to hear about your situation. I went through something similar and it is totally fucked up

I considered jumping as one of my early methods but I soon realised that I would never have the balls to do it. If you are set on this method then I would make sure you are fully prepared. Practice standing at the edge of heights, you have to be quite high up if you want to all but guarantee success. If you can afford it why not add skydive/parachute to your bucket list as a tester
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
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don't jump.... Take N or Sn but don't jump. its a horrible death...
If high enough it's over quick. Perhaps some people can't handle the waiting that is required for sn and n.
 
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Meliæ

Meliæ

In recovery
Aug 8, 2021
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I am sorry to hear that
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry to hear that you are suffering, l understand that it is painful when hope is taken away. I wish you peace if your decision is to leave.
 
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