A family history of catching the bus

[joeythinks]

Both my father and paternal grandfather caught the bus. It seems to run in my family. I don't know if it's becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy, but either way here I am.

The women in my family have suffered too much. They've lost their brother, father, uncle, son... I don't want to add to their grief, but hanging on for the sake of others is getting a bit tiring. I feel like I'm approaching a fork in the road.

I wondered, does anyone else have a similar family history? I'm sure I've read that suicide in the family begets suicide. Chances are high my experiences aren't exactly unique here. Anyone else have a family pass for the bus?

 

[Zegers]

I heard that one of my relatives ctb when he went broke but i don't think that has anything to do with why i'm here.

 

[lionetta12]

Both my father and paternal grandfather caught the bus. It seems to run in my family. I don't know if it's becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy, but either way here I am.

The women in my family have suffered too much. They've lost their brother, father, uncle, son... I don't want to add to their grief, but hanging on for the sake of others is getting a bit tiring. I feel like I'm approaching a fork in the road.

I wondered, does anyone else have a similar family history? I'm sure I've read that suicide in the family begets suicide. Chances are high my experiences aren't exactly unique here. Anyone else have a family pass for the bus?

I got 1 close family member that I know of that CTB some few years ago. Also have 1 that I'm aware of right now that's attempting it as well other than myself.

 

[Maravillosa]

My maternal grandmother ctb by gunshot at the age of 70, when I was 14 years old. I wasn't particularly close to her, but she was the only grandparent of mine that I ever met. I didn't find out she had ctb till I was 19 and I was in the psych ward for severe suicidal ideation and transient hallucinations and paranoia. As you might guess, discovering my grandmother had ctb was a shock. My mother didn't give details to me while I was hospitalized, and almost 40 years later, I still don't know much more than I did then.

 

[Ligottian]

Mental illness (including suicides and attempts) definitely run in families. At least mine. I got my anxiety/depression from my mother who in turn got it from her father. There are also some suicides and attempts on my maternal side. A few alcoholics on my father's side, although he was not one.

 

[Rational man]

Yes, my grandfather gassed himself. When i met the widow, i was not surprised he did. My father attempted a run under a passing lorry but he was unscathed and was escorted back to his awful care home. My mother was a depressive. I almost jumped from.a multistory car park as a child due to dysfunctional family but i didn't. I escaped and had a fairly good 20 Year's of connectivity with others, AND running a business. Unfortunately im dying now at 36, i may seek assistance in dying before its too late. The central theme that connects to ctb in my family is the lack of warmth and love, a disconnect feelings and narcissistic control and fear. Despite my terror i met someone and shared several wonderful years together before it ended. Glad i was abke to break the cycle of doom before i die. I wish you peace.❤❤

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, grandmother tried to gas herself and my mother tried to throw herself from a high story building and burned herself. It runs in the family alright.